* breakfast in bed ,

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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things for elliot weren't bad, but he didn't want to make things feel out of place. he knew where his boundaries were with students, and he truly had no reasons to cross them when he had a wife as beautiful as his at the moment. her being beautiful seemed to only be a plus to the whole relationship but she was more understanding than most, and he enjoyed that the most about her. he also knew the heartache and pain she went through and didn't want anyone to go through that again specially someone so special like his lily. he had always been friends with the girl, and called her his lily only because he seemed to hang out in the background for a while until they changed high schools or he left for utah, and let her marry the one man who used her for his own pleasure more than anything. elliot never would in his right might when he came back thought the one person at his welcome back would be lily and she would somehow bound with him, and find comfort. he knew he was a sensible guy at times, even to much for his own good but he knew her for being the girl in high school that any guy would kill for because she was so fucking hot.

he tried to convince himself it was a mistake at first, and it was only because he was nice. but he was wrong in the end just like usual. he always was bad at explaining women or even understanding them for that matter. it was like that question that they would ask you, if they look fat do you answer? if you lie and say no then they will assume you are lying and get mad at you but if you say yes they will still get frustrated at you. they enjoyed throwing things at men it seemed to somehow get them caught so they had to hear what they wanted but still also had a right to be annoyed with there boyfriend or husband. elliot however outsmarted most, and decided to change the question knowing it was more or less not worth getting into a disagreement. but lately he seemed to be able to joke around more and be free in this relationship. his previous one before lily was with a controlling woman who always wanted to know what he was doing ever second of the day. it was annoying to elliot more than anything specially knowing that she would always have to call him and make sure he was were he said he would be. she didn't trust him, and that's what ended things or it might have been the fact she broke up with him and claimed he was to needy for her, and left.

his dream that night had been an awkward one, and it made him feel somewhat doubting himself now as he laid in bed. it was about a student of his pretty much sleeping with him, and him allowing himself to have intercourse with her. in his mind, he didn't and wouldn't ever go that far specially with someone that was a student, and someone not his wife. he was next to the one person or rather woman that he needed, sure he possibly wanted a child down the line but it wasn't something that he was dying to have at this moment. they talked about it a few times but it seemed that things were just not looking up for them. he had a feeling that it would happen when they didn't need a child but no matter what he promised himself, and lily he wouldn't run out like most fathers, and specially won't let anything harm them.

slowly moving out of his bed, he was wearing his boxers knowing and thankful he had heat in house though, he did remember when he didn't used to. it was pretty bad, but then again he didn't need a heat when he had someone elses' body heat next to him every night keeping him warm until he had to roll out of bed, and didn't want to wake up his wife. he was thankful it was saturday, and knew he could stay in with his wife and didn't have to do much but grade and look over some papers. it wouldn't or shouldn't rather take more than a few hours, but know elliot he would start it and then get distracted specially on the weekend. he grabbed a pair of his dirty blue jeans that were in the laundry pile close to the door before heading down the stairs yawning lightly, as he ran his hand through his blond hair and pushing the nappy mess to the side of his head. he hated how complicated his hair became, but he enjoyed it mostly because it gave him a younger look even though in reality he was young.

moving into the kitchen he was an okay cook but wasn't nearly as good as his wife. but he didn't find it hard to put together a small breakfast for two. opening the fridge he pulled out the eggs, before setting them on the marble counter, and reaching in the cabinet for a bowl to stir the eggs in. pulling it down he set it next to the bowl before, opening the lid holding the eggs and breaking a few in the bowl before pulling a draw and bringing out a fork and stirring it all together. he reached into the fridge again and pulled out milk, and poured some lightly into the bowl before setting it back into the fridge, and pulling out some frozen sausage they had stored. throwing them in the frying pan he pulled out the night before, he slowly put together, a breakfast that contained coffee, milk, eggs, toast, and sausage. elliot didn't usually do it but felt in the mood for it, and didn't see anything stopping him.

placing everything on a tray he slowly headed up the stairs knowing the dogs were still sleeping thankfully or all of his hard work would have been in the carpet instead of in their bellies. reaching his room he pushed the door open lightly with his bare foot before walking in and setting the tray on one of the tables before shutting the door completely. he knew the doors had a habit of being the ones to wake the both of them up on the weekends but he decided that it would be a lot more silent between the two this way. slowly sliding back under the covers, he found the back of lily and placed his arms around the front of her lightly pulling her into him some before kissing her shoulder lightly. "morning," his voice was soft knowing that it was after all morning, and instead of getting his head bitten off he would try to do something nice, and not get eaten for breakfast.

tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes :: friends are late so working on
it now =D
status :: done!
word count :: 1188

[LILY JEANE RYAN]

LILYJEANERYAN
soul meets soul on lover's lips

Lily had been through a lot of crap in her life. She'd gone through high school being teased for her background, and because she didn't have quite as much money as everyone else. Of course, that didn't stop skeevy guys from hitting on her any chance they had. She wasn't easy but some girls had decided to spread the rumor that she was. She had always gotten along better with guys anyway, and girls hated her for it. She was always the first pick of the girls on the playground when the boys were playing football, and she had somehow managed to become friends with all the wrong guys in high school. It wasn't that the guys were bad people, but they were the boyfriends of very manipulative girls, who assumed she was sleeping with all of them. Because it was impossible for a girl to be just friends with a boy. She hated high school.

Then there was Robbie. The man who swept her off her recently graduated feet. He was older, handsome, and had a great job at a local restaurant. He was the perfect man. They dated for 3 months before he popped the question and Lily had fallen for him hook line and sinker. He was supposed to be the perfect man. It only took 4 months into their marriage for her to realize the mess he really was. He obsessed about their house being clean, and about the stupidest little things. The crazy thing was, she tried her hardest to do everything he wanted of her. She made sure all the towels were folded in the correct way, and that the toilet seat cover was always put on the right way. She cleaned the windows daily, because a smudge on a window soon came to mean a punch in the stomach. He never hit her face, and she soon realized it was because people would notice if she had her face bashed in. She could cover other bruises up with her shirts or pants. She quickly settled into his routine, and he alienated her from everyone she knew. She hadn't thought there was any chance of escaping.

Then he came back into town. She had heard he was coming back, and had wanted to catch up with him. So, while her husband was at work. She did something risky. She got his number and called him. She hadn't seen him for years, and it hardly seemed fair for her to just ignore old friends like that. Besides, her husband didn't even have to know about it. It wasn't like she was cheating on him. She was just catching up with an old friend. She saw him and all her memories came flooding back. Even though he was younger than her, he had always been a good friend. Now he was all grown up, and different. They became close in no time.

She would often shudder at the night her first marriage ended. It had been raining and she hadn't had time to clean the house because she'd had lunch with Elliot. She came home and her husband was already on the couch with a beer in his hand. She knew there was a storm brewing inside of him, and she wanted to run away, but knew she couldn't. He had started yelling at her, and throwing things. He eventually hit her over the head with a beer bottle, and she could feel the warm blood trickling down her forehead. That was all she really remembered, until later, when she'd woken up with a paramedic patching up her face, and Elliot holding her hand in the ambulance. That was the moment she knew she loved him. She'd been dancing around her feelings ever since he'd come back, but it was when he'd done something to save her from that house, that she knew he was the one for her.

Lily's eyes opened as she groaned slightly. The light from outside streamed in gently and clouded her eyes. She couldn't sleep with light in her eyes. She let out a small groan and stretched. She noticed that her husband was no longer in bed with her and she scrunched up her face in a questioning way. He was rarely out of bed before her, unless he had a lot of papers to grade. She figured that he was probably knee deep in paperwork, and she shouldn't bug him. So, she rolled over and closed her eyes, drifting half way between sleep and being awake. She liked this drifting time. It was slow and quiet, and it gave her the opportunity to prolong her sleep for just a few more minutes before she got up for the day. It was honestly one of the best times of her day. It would be better if she was snuggled up next to her hubby, but it was still pretty good. She enjoyed the safe haze.

She was startled by the feeling of the other side of the bed being weighed down. She pretended to be full on sleeping when she felt his arm around her. She smiled when he kissed her shoulder. She turned around to face him and pressed a kiss against his lips. "good morning to you too." She said with a grin before she noticed the tray of food. So, that was what that smell was. She smirked. "Breakfast in bed? What's the occasion?" She asked laughed and pressed another kiss on his nose before sitting up, sliding the covers down to her waist. "Smells great."

T A G elliot
W O R D C O U N T a number that exists.
N O T E S I sort of slacked at the end but only because my sister had her baby lol.
L Y R I C S some random quote. no song.

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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no one ever was perfect, and it was something women always had a problem with understanding. he knew compared to most he was better, but that was because he was raised well and plus he hang out with guys who turned out to be gay and learned alot of things about how to treat people. he didn't, and still doesn't mind homosexuals but he does know some people freak out about hearing the word. but the guys taught him how to treat women, and it seemed to work out for him in the long wrong. he knew it was something he was more than ever thankful for now that he is married, and basically is the perfect guy from what his peers say at the school. it was in his genetic make up to now be mean to anyone really, and that seemed to hurt him only in the long run. he knew it wasn't easy for him to say no or be mean which made things complicated in situations when he got into them.

he knew people really didn't know how how him and his wife met, but in his mind it was enough that people didn't. he didn't want them to know the physical, emotion, and mental abuse robbie put lily through. it was tough enough for her to talk to him about it, and it still made her upset about it. he decided that maybe forgetting him all together would be the best for both of them knowing that he was the main reason she was went to the hospital because he was dying to see her that day. they both assumed that since it was a rainy day he would have been late but he was way wrong, and that made things turn down for the worse. luckily the nosey neighbors they had happened to be good friends, and knew that elliot wanted them to keep an eye on her. so hearing the bottle smash, they called him and he was over there within a minute thankfully already being in his car.

he hated seeing her that way, and before he got there he had his friends call 911 before he went inside, and was nipped by the drunk robbie on the arm. he covered it up knowing it didn't hurt much and didn't want to be in the way, and within minutes he finally of that the cops came and arrested him, and the ambulence was not far behind them. he carried her out there knowing that she was laying there so dead, that he actually began to let himself believe she was. but he sat in the ambulence before letting his hand stay in hers. he didn't want to ever let going knowing things were this bad. he wondered how much worse they were, and why she didn't leave. but knew it wasn't the time nor the place for it so let her get patched up before wrapping her jacket around her body. his feelings for her were there from the first time they actually began to talk to each other knowing something was wrong in the way she looked but over looked it.

he knew that he wasn't so good at reading people, but at times was depending on the person. he assumed that he trusted lily enough to tell him anyway, and well i guess that was one thing she didn't want to tell him. he knew robbie was drunk, but there was still more to the story that he couldn't believe. elliot knew he was asking for it when he got involved with lily, but didn't know it was going to make her his wife. it worked out for him, but he wasn't sure if lily deserved it, and knew he wanted to do anything in his power to make lily feel safe, and wanted. he didn't know what else to do to make her feel safe, and he was making sure he didn't go and screw things up. it was hard to do that since he was only human, and everyone makes mistakes even if he tries to play it off as he didn't.

kissing her skin lightly he felt like sparks were coming from his lips, and that he could kiss her skin over and never get old from the touch, and feeling he got when he did it. seeing her turn around he smiled lightly as her lips came onto his, and he kissed her back lightly before turning his head to look the tray. "do i need one? i figured we should do something romantic since i don't really spend much time at home." he bite the inside of his lip knowing that he wanted to do it to please her because the rest of the day he would be buried in papers, though even then he tended to stray and come and play with his for a while in anyway possible.

tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes :: have sometime might not finish so sorry
status :: done
word count :: enough

[LILY JEANE RYAN]

LILYJEANERYAN
soul meets soul on lover's lips

Lily didn't like thinking about that night. She didn't like thinking about any of the nights she'd spent battered and bruised on her living room floor, before getting up to clean up the mess before Robbie woke up again. She didn't like thinking about when the next punch would come, or when the next kick would hit her. Yet, her dreams were plagued with thoughts of him. Her dreams were the only place she couldn't escape the man that had almost cost her her life. Somehow, whenever her husband was lying next to her, he took the edge off her dreams. He saved her from her nightmares too. He was just amazing like that.

Lily felt like a burden. If she had just been a normal girl, who wasn't married, and wasn't being abused, would Elliot still have married her. She knew he loved her, but sometimes she wasn't sure if he only married her because he didn't want her to be alone. She didn't want to be alone either, but she didn't want to be some man's obligation. She knew he acted like that wasn't the case, but she felt like a whiny baby sometimes. She had nightmares, and she recoiled from his touch sometimes. She freaked out when people surprised her, and she was obsessive compulsive when it came to cleaning. She tried to break her habit, but it was just that. She didn't think about it when she was doing it. Later, she would wonder to herself why she'd spent an hour scrubbing that one spot on the kitchen floor. Then it would hit her. She'd been doing her instinctive duty in order to keep herself safe. She was safe though. Elliot made sure of that.

She had never really been single since she was fresh out of high school. She was married to Robbie first, and that was hell on earth. She was surprised they made it as long as they did without him killing her. She went right from him to Elliot. It wasn't like a next day thing, but the feelings were there. He was there when she was rehabilitating her body from Robbie's biggest beatdown and when she had to appear in court at his hearing. He sat right in the crowd and cheered her on with his eyes. Eventually, they just were together. It was a silent transition that neither of them had really noticed much of before. They just knew that they were starting to feel things for one another. She finally opened herself back up to someone, and it took a long time, but he managed to get her closer to her old self than she'd ever been before.

She smiled at her husband as they lay there in their bed. This had to be her favorite place in the world. When it was just the two of them, snuggled up next to each other. She could just look at him and thank god that she was with him. She wasn't even sure she believed in the big man upstairs, but how else could she explain the miracle that was her life. She was living and breathing, and she was no longer bruised. The only thing that remained on her body was a few scars from a time so long ago, she pretended it was another life. "Of course you don't need one." She said with a grin and looked down at the food biting her lip. Her stomach growled proving to them both that she was hungry. She looked at him and raised her eyebrows.

"I understand that you're busy with work." She said, excusing his absences from home for him. She didn't want him to feel bad about not being around. When he was around, she couldn't be happier. She smiled and put her hand on the side of his face. "I keep myself busy here cleaning, relaxing, and running errands." She said, knowing there were a few other things she tended to around the house. She was good at doing mr. fix-it type things.

T A G elliot
W O R D C O U N T the number i wrote on a piece of paper and hid under your chair.
N O T E S CHEESE !
L Y R I C S some random quote. no song.

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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it was difficult for anyone in the world to get over something like that. elliot wanted her to forget it all but didn't know a way to. it worked out to his advantage and made her come to him but he didn't want her to go through that. he knew it was hard for anyone to get broken down, and abused the way she did. he knew it wasn't going to be a fast process for her to get over her husband, but he wanted a friend but ended up finding himself in love with her towards the end of it all. robbie's case wasn't hard to find him guilty, and he sat in the court room looking at the man who could be so evil to someone like lily, and basically fool her into believe he was some great man before slowly turning into this monster who could have killed her if she kept going on with the abuse.

he knew at times felt like he was a bad guy for making a move on a married woman when he first got back in town. he didn't know or ever would have guessed she was abused besides the way she seemed more closed off than usual. but he over looked that on there lunch go and assumed it was because he just got back and hadn't really seen her for a good while. he also thoguht it may had been the whole age thing, but it never seemed to stop them before, but who really knew. he was just glad she was out of that relationship to say at the least, and finally with someone who loved her. he assumed she felt the same way specially since she said i do and everything. but as time went by elliot was beginning to wonder if they were ever going to start an actual family. he was in no rush to and well never really talked about it seriously with his wife just yet.

a child was something he couldn't really handle without her help, knowing how her eyes lite up whenever she was able to hold a baby. he enjoyed kids more than anything but wanted to have a child of there own instead of having to look after his friends. he didn't know if he was able to have kids, but didn't know or want to bring up something that would bring horror to her. he could only imagine what robbie did to get sexually and it made him cringe whenever he thought of him putting his hand on his wife. it made him hate the man even more, and with that being said he was the only man elliot ever hated. it was hard to get him to hate people but he did and that was the man. it was more of the fact he took someone who was sweet, lovable, innoccent, and beautiful and tore her down to were it seemed impossible to bring her up.

elliot set his goal out to be the best husband, and do anything sweet for lily knowing she went through alot already. he knew sex apart of any relationship and well, he had slept with her a couple times but the thought of a baby made him want to try. he loved the way they could just lay in bed, though eventually he would have to leave for work but since it was the weekend he had no fear of being forced to leave anytime soon at least. he loved the way his wife looked though she did have some scars from before, but he merely over looked them and knew it was in there past. though he did fear sometimes that robbie would get out of jail and be come a change man and make lily fall for him again. elliot knew he stole his wife from him, but it was in her best interested and he was falling in love with her all over again even though he never really talked to her before.

there were so many things to love about her he didn't see how you couldn't love her. it was impossible for anyone not to, and well that made him smile even more thinking about it since he caught her before anyone else did well minus robbie. smiling lightly at her he knew it wasn't something he always did but knew it was a new change in pace it seemed. "i promise, in the summer i'm all yours." he knew he was always a neat freak, and he was somewhat glad lily found enough time to keep the house as clean as she did, though he really didn't mind a few messy days. feeling her hand on his face he leaned into it slightly before looking at her. "i have a question for you." he bite the inside of his lower lip for a minute before taking her hand into his, and rubbing it lightly with his own trying to distract his mind and let the words just come out. "what would you say if maybe we had a kid together?" he felt like a little kid at times with her, and knew that he didn't want to feel that way.

tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes :: aww elliot wants a kid <3
status :: done!
word count :: enough

[LILY JEANE RYAN]

LILYJEANERYAN
soul meets soul on lover's lips

Lily wasn't sure why, but she always felt like she put a pressure on Elliot. She already thought he was the best husband a girl could have, and now he'd proven it. he was there for her when she needed him. He picked her up and held her close whenever she would freak out about something. He held her when her nightmares took her over and all she could see was her ex-husband. He was a good man, and she felt like a burden. She knew that he loved her, but sometimes, she wondered if things would have been different if Robbie had been a good husband. Would they still be lying in bed together right now? Would she have left him for her old flame Elliot? Well, not old flame, but more of just an old friend. She had liked him, but he'd seemed to young at the time for anything to happen. They were both new to the world, and then he moved away and Robbie found her and asked her to marry him. Those days felt like a lifetime ago. Honestly, they probably were.

Lily loved children. She had always loved them. She had been the best babysitter in town when she was a teenager because she'd never get bored with the children. Parents would be surprised to come home late and see her and their two kids passed out on the couch from exhaustion just because they'd been playing so much. She wasn't like the other girls who just gave them a toy and told them to run along. That was how she made all her money, and she loved every second of it. So, when she married Robbie, she thought that it was finally time to have a child of her own, but he insisted on wearing a condom. She considered tricking him into believing that she was on birth control and he didn't need one, but she didn't want to have a baby if it was a trick baby. Besides, after he started beating her, she didn't want to bring a baby into that life.

She had gotten pregnant once on accident, but he'd thrown her down the stairs when she told him, and that was the end of that baby's life. It had been devastating for her, and she'd endured days of his yelling and screaming just because she was so depressed over her loss. The doctor's told her that the "fall" had done permanent damage and she was lucky to even be able to walk, let alone have children. So, she'd assumed that was the end of it. She would never have a child of her own and she'd be stuck with this man until she died, or until he killed her. Then Elliot had come and everything changed. They'd gotten married and she was happy for the first time in a long time. The only thing she hadn't told him was the damage she'd recieved from her husband's anger. She couldn't tell him that. She knew that he would eventually want a family though.

She had gone to the doctor's and they had told her that the damage wasn't as bad as they initially thought. There was a slight possibility that she may be able to have a baby, but through normal conception there was little chance. So, she'd stopped taking her birth control. What was the point if she couldn't have a baby anyway?

She was snuggled up to her husband and eyeing the breakfast he'd just made when he promised her the summer. She laughed. "Alright. I can wait. As long as we get to go on vacation somewhere just the two of us." She said and gave him a smile back. He was smiling differently than usual. It was sweet. She could see in his eyes that he loved her. That was enough for her. Of course, there was something she really needed to tell him, and eventually he would figure it out. She was surprised to hear his next comment. "Shoot." She said, wondering briefly what the question would be, before her stomach growled and she slid down the bed to grab a piece of toast off the tray. She munched on it as she listened to him.

The toast fell out of her mouth and onto the bed as she lookd at him with a surprised look. She hadn't expected him to want kids so soon. "You want kids?" She laughed a little, and then began to laugh a lot, hysterically. She didn't even mind that bread crumbs were getting all over their bed, she could clean it later. She gained her composure and smiled at him. "I'm so happy." She said and put her hand on his chest. Then she slid her hands down his arm and grabbed his hand. She put his hand to her belly and smiled even bigger. "Because we're going to have one." She said with an excited laugh and waited for his reaction. After she'd gone off birth control because the doctor's told her she couldn't get pregnant the natural way, she'd gotten pregnant. She guessed it was because she was long overdue for a baby, considering what had happened to her with Robbie. Since Elliot was in her life now, she knew this baby would be loved.



T A G elliot
W O R D C O U N T the number i wrote on a piece of paper and hid under your chair.
N O T E S haha. i was just going to have her tell him she's pregnant in the previous post but i wanted to talk to you about it first. lol. great minds think alike.
L Y R I C S some random quote. no song.

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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before lilly, elliot had been in only one serious relationship and it turned out he wasn't in love but was trying to pretend for the sake of the girl. in the end the girl said it wasn't working out and pretty much left him high and dry. he didn't mind looking back on it now but when he was with lily at the beginning he really wasn't sure what to do knowing a serious relationship was never he could get himself into for some reason. he wasn't sure if it was in fact him if he didn't hold the qualities some did. robbie was a man of muscle, and little brain were elliot was more brain than anything. it was somewhat made him hate the way he spent more time worrying about his brain than muscle. though with strength it seemed to get you no were unless you were a great athlete. he wasn't much for sports just because he wasn't that type of guy.

kids were things of mystery to everyone. elliot remembered his childhood and adored it most of the time even if it was spent most of the time with his nose in the book. he knew it was a goal he wanted to achieve and he strieved to be the smartest out of all of his class. he knew some of his friends didn't understand but it was just sometihng he had to do or he won't have been who he was today. he had some students who seemed to refuse to give up the childest habits that had even in the class room, and by the age of eightteen if you were still acting like a five year old there had to be something wrong. but none the less he did however get his entertainment that way. he didn't know if he would make a good father knowing after all that he basically never really took time to pay attention to how the father aspect worked. but it was his goal to try and make the best of it.

in high school elliot never really slept around like some and didn't get anyone pregnant knowing that he couldn't handle the burden of a kid. plus he wasn't the sleep around type though some of his friends were. he really didn't sleep with anyone for a good while until college, and that was because he was somewhat drunk and didn't know what was going on. but thank god for condoms in his option. though, with his wife he didn't want to be safe knowing she was using birth control because of robbie. he didn't mind have a child with lily though at times he did fear he might be far to busy to handle it. he knew several friends and students that went through that because of school and or work causing fights between the two. he didn't want to have a screaming baby or kid break him and lily up. it wasn't possible in his mind though alot of things weren't possible and it seemed to happen.

vacation was something he was looking forward to more than anything. any place in the world would be good specially to just have lily to himself for a complete week without being interrupted or drowned in paperwork. elliot thought of himself as a fair teacher but some of his students didn't understand that it didn't matter if they were there or not the school was still getting money already. he knew most if not all of the teachers at the college were that way but he felt bad because at times it was hard for people to get away from a kid, or relationship for school. which might have been the main reason elliot pretty much blocked himself off to the social world. his roommate was a partier and well they tended to fight about girls all the time knowing somehow they managed to whined up in his bed for some unkown reason. it wasn't rare at all to see him outside in the library sleeping or something odd like that. he didn't want to get into his roommate's business nor did he wish to see it so he decided to just ignore it most of the time.

wrapping her arms around lily as she moved closer into his body, he laughed lighlty. "i promise just the two of us. in paris maybe." it was paris, known for romance though it tended to be a lot better than what some said. elliot didn't care as long as it was away from home, and he had lily with him. he let his arms fall from around her as she slend down to the end of the bed. watching her eat he looked down before asking the question and then hearing her laugh he turned his head to the side as his hands were playing with the covers of there bed. he wasn't sure how exactly to take the laughing just yet, but feeling her hands on his hand he let her take his hand to her stomach. he lifted his head before smiling at the words that they were going to have a baby together. licking his lips he let his hand stay on her stomach before moving it to her face and place it on her cheek bone. he moved his thumb and rubbed the side of her cheek lightly. "i love you," he didn't know what else really to say. he was overwhelmed with joy at the moment and decided to just go off emotion for a while. leaning in he let his hands cradle her head and kissed her gently and with passion.

tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes :: aww that's going to be a mad
hot babe!
status :: done
word count :: enough

[LILY JEANE RYAN]

LILYJEANERYAN
soul meets soul on lover's lips

Kids had always been a big part of Lily's life. She had a large family of cousins and stuff, and had always been surrounded by kids. Plus, she had had several friends who'd gotten pregnant in high school. She knew it was stupid but she had been sort of jealous. She had the world at her feet. She was graduating high school. She had been accepted to Brown and had a full scholarship for her first two years. She could have been out of that town so fast and never looked back. She could have been free. Instead, she married charming Robbie, because what she really wanted, more than even Brown, was a family. She'd yearned for it, and Robbie had offered it to her with loving arms. At the time, she thought all her dreams had come true. How wrong she had been. After they got married he told her he didn't want kids because they would make the house messy and he didn't like that. Maybe someday they could talk about it, but not right away. He just wanted to be with her. He was a lying asshole.

She had been ready to run away after Elliot had saved her. She had even considered asking Elliot to take her as far away from Wells Beach as he possibly could, but she couldn't uproot his life like that. Besides, she had to face her demons, and accept the things she'd been through. Walking past her old home was enough to send chills through her spine. It was even more depressing to see the young happy couple with their child playing in her old front yard. They seemed so much like what she'd expected to come out of that house. They truly deserved to live in it, but her husband had tainted it forever. It would always be a house of fear and danger for her. The only comfort she had was the idea that he was behind bars for as long as he could be. She would go to every parole meeting and trial she could possibly do, as long as it kept him right there in prison. She didn't know much, but she hoped the other guys in prison were roughing him up and making his life hell. He deserved it.

She'd found out she was pregnant a week before her husband had brought a tray of food up to their bed and asked her if she wanted kids. She'd woken up feeling sick and had gone to the bathroom to vomit. She instantly felt better. The entire day she'd craved a pickle sandwich, and she knew that that was exactly what her mother had craved during her pregnancies. She had went out and bought a test that day. The test had turned out positive and she had been so happy, but sad at the same time. The last time she'd told her husband she was pregnant, he'd thrown her down the stairs. She knew Elliot would never hurt her, but she was still worried about how he'd take it. He was always so busy with work and other things that she wasn't sure if he thought they were ready for a baby.

She had gone into the doctor to see if she really was pregnant and he had confirmed it. For the rest of the week she'd danced around the subject every time she was around him. She would have it on the tip of her tongue but she would chicken out. She didn't want to get in a fight about how they weren't ready. He had his job, but she didn't really work anywhere. She babysat occasionally for her friends and adding one more kid wouldn't hurt. Besides, she wouldn't be lonely, and she would have something to do around the house. She knew he wanted to be there for a child, but she understood that he had to work. They had to make a living somehow. She could just raise their child, and he'd have to deal with it, because there was no way they could get around having a baby. Whether he was ready or not, there was a baby on the way.

So, when she heard him ask that question, she was extremely relieved and had shown her feelings exactly how she'd wanted to the moment she'd found out.

"mmm. paris sounds delicious." She said and wondered if she'd look cute walking down the french riviera with a big belly and ice cream with an arm wrapped around her husband's arm. She decided they'd look good in Paris. Not that looks really mattered. She watched his reaction with a grin on her face. His hands on her body reassured her that this was what he really wanted. "I love you too." She said with a smile. Tears started to fill her eyes and she wiped them away. She was just so happy he was happy. She kissed him back with warmth and compassion. She couldn't believe how much this moment meant to her right now.

She put her hands on her belly, looking down at it. "I'm also a little scared." She said and looked at him with worry. "Losing one baby was painful enough, and the doctor said it was a possibility, considering that Robbie hurt me so badly." She grimaced when she said his name and flinched a little. Talking about him out loud was different than thinking about him. Saying things out loud made them way more real.

T A G elliot
W O R D C O U N T i whispered it to a pigeon and sent the pigeon to you.
N O T E S a very gorgeous baby indeed.... stupid robbie... he's a jerk.
L Y R I C S some random quote. no song.

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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being able to mold someone was something some people were good at but others turned there kids into devils. he knew a few couples that tried to control there child and turned them into a rebel. elliot knew he didn't want to be that kind of parent. he wanted his child to be there own person without having the the pressure of his or her parents breathing down it's neck. elliot knew his parents were like that to a point but backed off when they saw who he was turning into and trusted him. only a few of his close friends were young parents but even then elliot would enjoy watching there kid because he didn't mind it back then. he still didn't mind it though he would rather watch them than grade homework of college students who seemed like geniuses inside the classroom. he didn't understand how they were failing others but passing his, and he didn't mind taking time to help them in others knowing he was pretty good about other subjects besides the one he taught.

robbie could have had a perfect life but decided to instead turn against his wife. elliot knew that he wished he could have been robbie the first time around instead of having to save her from robbie. though he knew robbie was somewhat more strength than anything but he decided maybe if he was robbie lily could love him even more. watching the notebook with one of his girl friends and reading the book for a project in school he remembered a quote and didn't ever want it to come true for lily. elliot remembered it only because he thought it was an amazing quote, but it turned out that in the end noah got ally. 'it's natural to not forget you're first love. but i want you all to myself.' elliot had always been team noah from the start but watching the movie he thought the girl playing ally was hot, and basically knew that it was a match made in heaven between the two. he wanted to be her noah not her other guy that no one remembered. everyone wanted noah and ally. but he wasn't sure how many people wanted all and the other man, it was all complicated to him.

elliot knew he was loosing it when he began to compared his love life to a story wrote a while back he was forced to read for a class. being a father wasn't scaring him like he thought it would of though he was somewhat worried about the whole not being able to spend much time with his child. though, he was also worried that he would become moody because of grading papers with a screaming baby though he knew he would have to develope a method that worked around everything. he wasn't sure of his method just yet but he would soon develop one knowing he didn't want to have to stay at college for a longer period of time because he couldn't focus. but it was all something they would work out when it came time to actually have it which wasn't that far away if he thought about it.

paris was told to be the place of romance, and he knew it was just going to be the two well three of them there. he could seem himself now just laying there with her just the two of them not work, no anything. he knew his job was something they both needed but he was sure he could talk to the headmaster about a month or two offtime to have some time with his knowing that he well deserved it. looking at her hand he watched it go to her stomach, and he looked at her listening to her talk about robbie. he never knew that she was pregnant with the spawn of satan, and well he assumed it was because she was ashamed or some reason. but elliot didn't think of her any differently knowing that robbie was faking from the beginning on who he really was. putting his hands ontop of hers, he looked at her. "we'll be fine. i won't let anything happen to you or our baby."

tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes :: not my best sorry hun.
status :: done
word count :: enough

[LILY JEANE RYAN]

LILYJEANERYAN
soul meets soul on lover's lips

being surrounded by children her entire life hadn't given her much training for being a mom. she saw how other people made mistakes with her kids, and she knew that she was going to make mistakes with her own. she just hoped she didn't mess them up so much that they hated her for life for it. she wanted to be a good mother, maybe even a great mother. she wanted to protect her kids from all of life's dangers, but she also wanted them to go out and experience things on their own. she wanted to worry about them, but not so much that they thought she was controlling and overbearing. she wanted to be the perfect mother, but she knew there was no way she could possibly be the perfect mother. nobody had that ability. her child would grow up and hate her at some point, that was just the way it worked. well maybe if she only had sons, then that would never happen, but if she had a daughter, they would resent her at some point in time. she remembered being a teen, and not liking her mother, it wouldn't be any different. she just didn't want them to hate her forever. their teens would be bad enough.

she was terrified of messing up her children, but she was also terrified she'd make some mistake and they'd be harmed physically. she couldn't survive the death of a child. if one of her children ever died because she was foolish and stupid, then she would probably just stop eating and die of despair. she was horrified of having children, but she wanted it more than anything else in the world. she wanted to have a big happy family. she wanted to have squabbles with her husband and her children, but she didn't want to fight with them. she wanted to disagree about where to go for family vacation, not about how she forgot to arrange the towels right and how that deserves a beating. that life was behind her, and no matter what kind of child they had, she knew that her and elliot would turn them into the kind of adult people envy because they're just that great.

there was also the question of how much time their child would have with their parents. elliot had a job, but lily didn't. she wouldn't mind being a stay at home mom. she knew that babies weren't all fun and games, and they pooped around the clock, but she was prepared for that. she just didn't want her child to not be as close to his or her father simply because elliot worked long hours. even when he was home he was busy grading papers and making lesson plans. they rarely had time just for them. throwing a kid into the equation would mean even less time for just them. she knew that it would happen eventually, and she wanted it to happen. she just wished there was a way that he could spend more time with their child and less time with his work. she knew that was silly of her to ask for. besides, there would always be summertime to spend with kids, and if he really wanted to, he could take "maternity", maybe "paternity" leave from school for a couple weeks. that was only possible right after she had their child, but hopefully he would be willing to tear himself away from his work for a while to help her with their newborn child. she didn't want to ask him, but she knew she'd have to. she had the feeling that she might be one of the few pregnant women who suffered from post-pardom depression and she didn't want to do anything bad until she managed to get her barings taking care of a newborn all on her own.

she thought about paris and how pregnant she would look by summer. it would be funny. her waddling down the street next to some blonde guy who looked way younger than her, even though they weren't that far apart. he always looked younger than he actually was. she liked that about him though. that meant their child would probably have that quality. she thought it was a pretty redeeming quality. she hoped her children were just like him. "good. my big strong husband." she said with a bit of tease her voice. "i know you won't let anything happen." She said and bit into a piece of bacon. She offered it to him and smiled. "your child digs bacon. i can already tell." she said with a warm grin before looking down at her belly.

T A G elliot
W O R D C O U N T i whispered it to a pigeon and sent the pigeon to you.
N O T E S haha no worries. -does dance-
L Y R I C S some random quote. no song.

[ELLIOT DAVEN RYAN]

shawty i can take you there,

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tag :: lily
song :: take you there ,, sean kingston
notes ::---
status :: in progress
word count :: enough
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