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[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

There were no beaches like the beaches here. Having spent seven months in California, Jensen had grown accustomed to the white sands covered in beautiful bodies and the clear water being carved up by hunky surfers. She thought the beaches back in Maine would never compare, that she'd always wish she was back in California but she was wrong. Having pulled up at the familiar beach, the beach she'd spent a chuck of her tme at over the last six years, she fell in love with it all over again. The smell, the way things weren't so movie quality perfect. This was her beach. The only people she had to share it with was the small number of people living in town. Not a whole city full of strangers.

Jensen Miller was finally home. Well, she had been for a week or so now but she'd spent most of that time indoors. It was safe to say that a part of her was just a little nervous about being back. Surely people were going to talk about her and even worse, what if they had forgotten about her? What if she'd been replaced or everyone suddenly hated her? Childish thoughts for a twenty year old to be having and yet she couldn't shake them. She'd just left, without really saying goodbye to anyone. Sure she'd spoken to a few of them over the internet or hone but only those she was extremely close to. She was just being stupid. See was sure of it. Everyone would understand. Right?

More than anything she was excited. Excited to be home, to see the people she loved, to go back to normal. Ofcourse normal for Miss Miller wasn't exactly a leisurely stroll but it was what she loved. Jensen was on a constant hunt for fun and excitement and today it had lead her to the beach with a bunch of aquaintences she hadn't seen in months. That was one of her favourite things about Wells Beach. You could always find someone or something to entertain you.

This particular day there was a celebration of some sort going on on the beach. Nothing too big, nothing too organised. Mainly an excuse to get everyone together really. And excuse to have a drink too which was what Jensen was really craving. Then again when wasn't she craving one? Running a hand through her beach waved locks she accepted the drink off a random guy not even caring what it was and took a sip. There were no familiar faces around. Well ofcourse everyone in Wells Beach seemed familiar but noone Jens had been curious to see just yet. None of the important people really. Perhaps she should have rang someone and let them know she was finally done unpacking and ready to jump head first back into her life? Simple things such as that never really passed Jensens mind. She's much rather live in the moment and see what suprises life threw at her. Downing half the bottle in one go she felt the burn of vodka and the taste of raspberry slide down her throat. Almost instantly she put at ease so much more. Her nerves were calmed and she was able to relax. Once more she thanked the shaggy haired blonde who'd passed her thr drink, shooting him a wide, flirtacious smile and moved a slight way away from the group of males to talk to a few females she'd known in highscool. Yes, things would be just fine. She'd settle in again, her family would fix itself and maybe she'd even learn to calm down a little.

WORDS!? 610. sorry it's so short. i hate starting
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!?attire here and this should be a good one :]
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

After a long morning of classes and an even longer day spending “quality time” with his father, it was just about time for a break from studying and his dad. I know I know, James studying? The apocalypse must be coming. But it was the only excuse James had to get away from his father, who thought that some time spent together would fix everything he’s done in the past. James didn’t buy it though. There probably won’t be a day in his life that James will feel an ounce of forgiveness towards his dad. Luckily his “I have a lot of studying to do” act got him out of the awkward situation. When James got home he actually did some studying mostly because he didn’t have anything else to do. And it was the only thing that would pass the time until he was going to take a small trip down to the beach. There was apparently some kind of party thing going on down there and he wanted to check it out. James has always been one for parties, and he hoped that it wouldn’t be lame. Lame parties made for a bad night, which would ruin James’s partying mood. Not to mention they were a waste of his night.

So James began getting ready. He took a shower, which was sort of pointless seeing as he was going to get all sandy, but he just didn’t feel right if he didn’t take a shower before going out somewhere. Maybe he’s a clean freak. He wasn’t sure if he wanted to surf or not. The wet suit got extremely hot after a while when he wasn’t out in the water. But if he fell, he’d probably be in a world of hurt when the water smacks against his bare skin if he were to wear just a pair of swim shorts. Well, it was a chance he’d have to take considering he already got pretty hot easily. James pulled out a pair of white swim trousers and pulled them on over his boxers. He wasn’t sure why he got into the habit of wearing boxers underneath his swim shorts. James knew plenty of guys who did it too, but also some guys who chose to go commando too. James hated the feeling of just wearing the swim shorts; it was almost like he was walking around in his underwear. That was probably the one thing he was, I guess you could say self conscious about.

James grabbed his keys and headed outside to his car. The drive to the beach was a short one, considering his mansion-like house was near the beach. In fact, if he didn’t have to lug around his surfboard he wouldn’t have had to drive. But there was no way he was going to carry that big board around with him back and forth from his home to the beach. It was too much work. He already worked out five days a week, so he took every opportunity to be lazy when he wasn’t working out as much as possible. James parked in the parking lot just outside of the beach and un-strapped his board from the top of his car. He tucked it under his arm as he walked out onto the warm, sandy beach. The place always had a way of relaxing James. He loved the small of the salty ocean water, and the sound of the waves crashing against each other. Not to mention the women in skimpy bikinis were always a good sight. But there was always a couple of beefy girls who for some reason think that they look like models in their string bikinis when in reality, they make James want to puke. People like that should just stay off the beach, in James’s opinion. No one wants to see their fat jiggling around when they walked down the beach. The same goes with guys too. Not to say that James liked looking at men’s bodies. Oh no, that’s gross. But it would be nice not to have to see these old guys with beer bellies hanging around. Another great thing that makes James want to puke. The beach just isn’t a place for everyone, y’know?

For a while, James was in the water catching a few waves. He was pretty good at surfing, having done it for a couple of years. It was probably about three years ago that he had just started surfing and found an interest in it. When he first started lessons, it was pretty humorous. So humorous that James made sure no one was around when he had a lesson; no one that he knew at least. It was extremely embarrassing. James would fall just about every two seconds. There was a lot more experience on his side now and he turned out to be pretty good. He was no professional, but he could at least stay on his board for the length of a whole wave. It had been about half an hour when James walked out of the water with his board tucked under his arm. He ran a hand through his hair a couple of times, just to keep it from dripping water into his eyes. There was a good amount of people around the beach for the “special gathering”. A few of the people James recognized; he greeted them and talked with them for a while, stealing a drink out of the hand of one of his buddies.

James laughed at a joke one of the guys had told and propped up his board into the sand. He began walking backwards, holding up his empty drink. Get me another drink, will ya? he said, turning around and bumping directly into someone. Good thing his glass was empty. James took a step back, taking a look at the girl who he’d bumped into. Sorry about that, he said, still smiling from the joke told just a minute ago. It took him a good thirty seconds to realize just who it was he was looking at right now. Jensen? he questioned, a hint of confusion in his tone and a more serious expression on his face now.

word count: 1,036 w/o code
status: finito!
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: this is gonna be greaat. =D
listening to: Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

Jensen was a social creature, always had been and probably always would be. The twenty year old thrived on attention and social situations. She loved people and people loved her. Ofcourse she had her days. The days when all she wanted was to escape the crowd she was usually so fond of. Grab a drink, or six and keep to herself. To the worry of her family, there had quite a few of these days in the lead up to her departure all those months ago. That combined with the amount of drinking she did when she partied was enough to worry any parent. Especially parents that were constantly worrying about their social reputations.
She was back now though and was ready to let them know she’d changed. Had she changed? Hardly but it was easy to put her parents minds at rest.

Digging her toes into the cool sand, Jensen couldn’t wipe the smile of her face. It felt good to finally be home. While California had it’s endless list of perks, there was something about Wells that put her at ease. It was small and everyone knew everyone else’s business but it was full of people she loved. Sure, she may have left a few of them behind, not even bothered to make contact or say good bye but they’d all forgive her right? She’d had to go. The death of her brother had only sent her spiralling out of control even more than usual.
Bringing the bottle to her lips, she finished it off in one quick gulp, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand and throwing the bottle into a near by bucket the boys had decided to use as a bin. At least they were looking after the beach.

Though this wasn’t the usual bustling party scene, over crowded club, Jensen was still happy here. It was safe to say she was a party girl. Jensen stopped at nothing really to have fun because it was all she’d really known. The boys, the booze, the dancing, the lights and attention. She loved it all. She was good at it. Situations like these however were to be treasured. It was sunny as opposed to dark or overly lit, the music wasn’t as loud and pumping and there was an actual opportunity to talk to people rather than to just get drunk and grind up against them. It was truly a moment for Wells Beach and she was sure she wouldn’t have been abele to have it anywhere else. The feelings of nostalgia she was feeling right now were even making her want to be sick. ”I’m gonna go grab another drink” she smiled at the group of girls even though she’d tuned out from their conversation awhile ago. Flashing them another smile she treaded back through the sand over to the group of boys who seemed to be controlling the liquor flow.

Hands picked up one of the clean cups and she held it out to one of the many surfers with a sweet, flirty smile. ”Fill me up?” she grinned cheekily. Typical Jensen. I could have been her looks, it could have been the fact she was in a bikini or it could simply be because she was Jensen. Whatever the reason, she had a way of controlling the males around her and she enjoyed the attention she received from them. She wouldn’t have called herself a slut, perhaps a few other people would have but in her mind a slut was always associated with a bitchy kind of character and she wasn’t that. Jensen was sweet natured, she looked for the good in people and while she had her mean streak she reserved it for a select few. Okay, so she slept with guys but what else was she supposed to do? Date every person she found attractive on a drunken night? The ran through an endless amount of short lived romances before she got bored of them and got rid of them. She may have felt bad doing it but she was always quick to move on.

Her cup filled up she smiled once again, taking a sip, ”Thanks hun” she thanked the guy and decided she’d go and mingle some more. Turning back around she kept her eyes down for a moment as the sun glared it’s way through her baby blues. The sudden feel of another body against hers and a voice that sounded similar to the rest and some of her drink was now spilt into the sound in front of her and she was left shocked for just a moment. Any other girl that had been raised the way she had might have chucked a tantrum right them but instead she let out a little laugh. It was the same type of mood she’d probably pull. ”It’s fine seriously” she still had the smile from laughing on her face as she turned to see who the offender was. He was staring at her, noting more and it made her stop for a brief moment. It shouldn’t have taken her so long to register who it was because she knew instantly. From the second she’d turned around she’d known, she probably could have guessed from the voice if truth be told. He knew it was her too and she was for once, speechless. If she’d thought the shock she’d felt from being bumped into was something, she should have waited till this moment. This won hands down. ”Oh my god. James” she let her smile fade just a little, especially seeing the look on his face. She had no idea how to react. She rarely knew how to act around James Morgan. Then again, what girl did?

The story with James? Similar to the story they both probably had with the opposite sex. Before she’d left they’d had that whole friends with benefits thing going on. Simple enough right? One would think so but Jensen had always had a soft spot for James. He was arrogant and cocky and at times she wanted to punch him square in the face but they were still friends and he was easily forgiven and truth be told, he may have been a little more special than the other guys in her life. Not even Jensen had an idea why and trust me, she’d tried to ignored that fact for ages and been successful too. He wasn’t an open guy and he was like her in the commitment phase.

Taking in his appearance for a moment it looked like not much had changed. Definitely not a bad thing. It was easy to tell why he was a favourite with the girls. He embodied what Jensen would have had on her list of “physical type” when it came to a guy. The bright eyes till seemed to sparkle, he was obviously still obsessed with working out and ofcourse there were the tattoos. She’d always been a sucker for tasteless tattoos. Long story short, James Ryan Morgan still looked good. More importantly, he was there. Right in front of her and she still hadn’t said anything. ”Wow. Oh my god. Hey” she smiled at him with excitement though there was that little nervous feeling gnawing away at her stomach. She tried her best to ignore it, she already sounded like an idiot lost for words. Precisely what she was. What was she supposed to do now? Tempted to raise her arms and fling them around them in a huge hug like she’d done wit ha few other she decided against it. Who knew how he’s react? Instead she rested one lightly on his shoulder and kissed his cheek, her smile still present though a little bit of that nervousness was showing now. ”It’s so good to see you” she told him honestly. It really was and she really hoped he felt the same way too.

WORDS!? 1321 w/o codes
STATUS!? all done love
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? my god, he's so sexy lol
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

James had always been good at hiding his emotions. He’d probably learned a couple of years ago when he was just a boy. It always pissed his dad off, but whenever a beating came along, James would force himself not to cry. A blank expression was forced onto his face, no matter how bad the pain was. And even though the non responsive action made his dad hit even harder, James wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of weakness. James had an issue with showing weakness. It’s why he never did it. Even when he was in the boxing ring with a worthy opponent who just might beat him, he holds his head high and doesn’t give up. It’s who he is and that will never change. Except, in this particular moment James was struggling to remove the shocked and slightly confused expression from his face. It was almost as though he’d seen a ghost, and was currently craving another drink just to relax himself. It had been so long since he’d last seen her. In fact, he couldn’t remember the last time they spoke or even had a chance to see each other. It’s had to have been a good amount of months since their last meeting; six or seven maybe? Not that he’d been counting or anything…

The conflict that was raging around his head like World War II was whether or not he should be happy to see her or pissed off. James wasn’t a simple guy, so when someone who has a decent part in his life just up and disappears without a trace, he has a hard time acting as if nothing happened. He needed answers. Any other person, James probably wouldn’t care though. Most of his relationships with women were more of the no strings attached kind. James was huge on partying and met tons of women in his day. One night stands, flings, the like were frequent in his life. He’s had enough of those to be classified as a womanizer I’d say. James always had a certain charm that draws the women in. Sure he’s an ass hole, but a certain few people get to see him work that charm. But the charm is really used for getting women into bed mostly. So it’s not a good kind of charm, more like…A fake charm that women don’t usually see through. And then once he gets what he wants, he leaves them without another word. Well, he’s never been on the other side of this situation. And this thing he had with Jensen was just like one of his one night stands. He felt like a woman who’d been tricked into bed, and left alone in the morning without a warning. Pathetic, right? That’s exactly why James was pissed off at her for leaving without telling him. He didn’t even get a call from her. Whatever the reason was for leaving, James wanted to know. And it had better be a good one. God, he needed it to be a good one because he didn’t want to be pissed off at her right now.

James was happy to see her too in a way. They had an interesting relationship before she left. It started as a simple friends with benefits thing. Nothing unusual about that. James has had a good share of friends with benefits before, so this one seemed like it would be no different. James was sure she had a couple of guys she had a liking to while in this friendship, and James still participated in a few flings and one night stands also. So it was a pretty open relationship, like that no strings attached thing I told you about earlier. Yeah, everything was great until he began getting these weird feelings while around her. He never said anything about it, I mean since when does he get feelings for anyone, y’know? So he ignored it naturally. He didn’t let it get in the way of their fun times together. All those hot and steamy nights together made him happy that she had just randomly appeared in front of him. So I guess there was a little mixed feelings spinning around in his head as of now. James really needed a drink now. All this thinking about what he should do was giving him a major headache.

Judging from the expression on Jensen’s face, she was having some kind of struggle in her mind too if not the same as his. She looked a bit scared and nervous. That for some reason made James feel better, just because now he knew he wasn’t the only one here who didn’t know what he should do at this point. She seemed happy enough to see him. And it was almost as though she hadn’t left when she placed a kiss on his cheek. It was then that James had snapped back into reality. The kiss was like cold water being chucked into his face. It was surreal really, he hasn’t felt those lips against his skin in so long, they’ve almost become unfamiliar. James rubbed the back of his head, still unable to find the words to express his mixed feelings about her reappearance. Never in his life had he felt so pathetic and it was pissing him off to the max that he couldn’t just be his old, blunt self. James opened his mouth to say something, anything to make this a little less awkward and weird. One of his friends passed by with a nice full glass of vodka and James gladly snatched it up out of his hand. The guy gave James a look, but didn’t bother trying to get it back. The glass was already to James’s lips before the guy could even say anything. James downed the whole thing in no more than two gulps. The sting of the vodka running down his throat was just the thing he needed right about now. Not wanting to have to hold two glasses, James thrusted both empty glasses to his friend who was staring at his empty hand in disbelief that his drink had been taken so easily. James smirked. Asshole, the guy muttered, though it was only a joke considering he walked away chuckling and shaking his head.

James then turned back to Jensen, who was probably thinking that he had gone crazy by now. Never had James been so speechless, and she knew it. He looked over her bikini clad body. The sight made him feel a little better. She definitely still had that same sexy body he’d grown to love. Where the hell did you go? he questioned in a slightly harsh tone. Hey, he had to be harsh if he wanted to get the answers he needed. James couldn’t just be left in the dust for so long and be expected to act as if things were peachy keen when she suddenly returned. But then again, he didn’t want to be mad. He was sure she had a good reason. The almost serious expression turned into a crooked smile, despite how pissed off he was. You up and leave me for what seems like years and all I get is a kiss on the cheek? he questioned, as if he were offended. James reached out to grab her hand and pull her into a hug.

word count: 1,230 w/o code
status: le fin
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: i know riight? -drools- xD
listening to: Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

She’d been dreading a moment like this. Usually she wasn’t the type to worry, she took everything as it came and lived for the moment. However on the long journey home her mind began to wander and she actually found herself stressing out over peoples reactions. There were the few she’d kept in close contact with, those like Evan and Juliet. Evan ofcourse was someone she’d worried about constantly while away. As for everyone else, she’d spoken to a few of them on the phone. Some of the over the internet but that was about it. It was almost as if she’d tried to forget her life back in Wells. California had occupied her for those months and she wasn’t the type of girl that concentrated on more than one thing at once. It wasn’t until now that she’d realised how much her heart had ached for Wells and everything it had to offer.

As for James, well she hadn’t really kept in contact with him. At all. He was often so closed off that she hadn’t felt the need to tell him she was leaving. Jensen hadn’t really factored him into that change. She knew him well, knew what type of guy he was, knew how he saw relationships with girls like hers and so she thought he wouldn’t have cared all that much. He’d have a new Jensen within seconds to add to the collection and that was that. James was hardly the type of guy who had to worry about where his next sexual encounter was coming from. Ofcourse there was also the issue they’d been friends. Not everything had been about their times spent “benefiting” , there had been some core friendship of some sort there. The relationship wasn’t as close as the one she shared with Evan but then again it was unfair to compare James to her best friend. The fact of the matter was not only had she left behind someone she’d been sleeping with, she’d left behind a friend, a guy that she genuinely cared for. In what way, she had no idea.

It was unnerving to see him act like this. Usually so cool, calm and collected he seemed at a loss for words. It was hard not to feel uncomfortable in a situation like this. Things probably would have turned out better if she’d jumped out of a box in front of everyone and yelled surprise at the top of her lungs. It seemed a much more Jensen like move too. Always the centre of attention. She heard him speak and couldn’t help but be a little taken aback. His words seemed harsh and it was easy to tell he was pissed off. Jensen looked down at her feet as they’d sunk into the sand a bit and chewed on the bottom of her lip. Normally she wouldn’t have cared if someone was annoyed with her. It was their loss not hers and she’d make some smart ass remark and be on her way to find someone hotter to entertain her. For some reason, it mattered this time though. ”I…umm..I” she began, never having felt so unsure of herself before, a hand running through her darkened blonde locks once more. How did she answer that? Hey! Sorry I went abit crazy after my brother died, thought I’d get away. She’d already heard what some people had been saying. She’d gotten pregnant and left. She was in rehab. She’d joined a cult. She’d never realised how much people expected her to shock but she wasn’t sure what approach to take with James. He wasn’t the sharing type and he was one of the last people on Earth she could imagine getting all deep and meaningful with. Unless they were both wasted ofcourse which wouldn’t be such and uncommon scenario. ”California actually” Jensen answered his questions in the literal sense. He’d asked where she’d been after all, not how she’d got there. ”I just…needed to get away for a bit. You know what my family’s like” she shrugged trying to make it casual but looking up at him with uncertainty. That was pretty close to being true and so she felt absolutely no guilt or anything about fabricating a few things. Her family really were always putting pressure on her to be perfect and keep up the Millers good name. She was sure he’d understand. It was James after all and she doubted he was too concerned, being more concerned with the fact he’d lost one of his fuck buddies.
The moment that followed was slightly awkward and Jensen was tempted to say goodbye and go off to find someone else. That was kind of rude however so she stayed there even though not all the charm that she possessed could stop her from looking just as uncomfortable as she felt at that exact moment.

Her look of uncertainty vanished however when she noticed that familiar crooked smile of his and she was being pulled into a hug. She felt her entire body relax, all the knots in her shoulders eased and she was no longer tense. God she hated him for being so up and down but was thankful she hadn’t burnt this bridge. A smile of her own tugged at the corners of her lips as she embraced the familiar body against hers happily. It felt good to hug him after so long. ”I’m sorry” she laughed at his comment, ”I didn’t know how you’d react”. She let go of him as some of her drink from her cup splashed onto the sand behind him. Finishing it off, she held onto the cup, dropping her arm down by her side loosely and grinning up at him. ”So? Tell me you missed me” she grinned cheekily, ”Because I know you did”.
It was a long shot as he probably hadn’t. It had probably just been Jensen who’d felt like they’d been getting just that tiny bit closer the last few weeks before she’d left. Knowing her it was something she’d imagined up just before she passed out or something. As for missing her? He probably missed the nights they’d spent together, some mornings too, more than her actually missed her and she was fine with that. They’d gotten into a routine with each other and even Jensen had missed him at times while she was gone. Even though she’d missed him, she hadn’t contacted him. That would have been plain weird in her eyes for some reason. Almost as if she was making a booty call all the way from California. Still, every time she’d seen him sign on IM or something she’d been tempted to say hey but had stopped herself. Sometimes the girl really did care what other people thought.

WORDS!? 1,131 w/o codes
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? arrgh sorry it sucks, it's 2 am here but i really wanted to give you a reply
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

Usually James wouldn’t be so hot and cold in this sort of situation. With other people, he’d simply be hot…Very heated at that. James didn’t like being left out, considering in his mind he was the hottest shit since sliced bread, he needed to be included. And when a fuck buddy/pretty good friend did something like that, sparks would fly. And James wasn’t the kind of guy who forgives easily. There have been plenty of times during his lifetime that he’s dropped a few friends because of something they did that James just couldn’t forgive. It was like, if you did something major to shake up James’s trust, then there was a fat chance you’d get forgiven. James puts a lot of effort into his friendships, unlike his sexual relationships, so when he’s betrayed it really pisses him off more so than hurts his feelings. As for dropping some of those friends, most of them have called him an idiotic jerk for doing such a thing after having one thing go wrong in the friendship. But hey, he didn’t need to justify his decision. It was his decision, and he didn’t need backstabbers as friends.

But Jensen. For some damn reason, Jensen was different. He didn’t even know where to start with this girl. Before she left, James was getting much too close to this girl. He found himself calling or texting her far too much, more than fuck buddies should. But they were friends, though right? Yeah sure, they were pretty good friends. Not really best friends, but good enough that they could go out maybe once a week without ending up in bed afterward. There had been something pulling him in, luring him into the trap that most people would call love. Was he heading in that direction about six months ago? If he was, James had done everything in his power to prevent it from happening. He didn’t know what it was about love that scared him so much. Secretly, James wanted it, he desired it. No one will ever know that, but it was true. For so long, James had been beaten and uncared for. There were so many days that James felt that his mom and dad didn’t even love him. Could you blame the boy? His mom left when he was just a child. He doesn’t even know why she left, she just did. When James got older, he had some guesses as to why though. It was probably his dad’s drinking habits. He’d come home drunk almost every night, and that would bring out the worst in him. It was sad really, how these happenings made an effect on James’s life right now in the present. It made him unsure of love, unsure of his ability to be loved by someone else. So he just stays away from it. He took the easy way out and though he’d never admit it, James’s father is in a way still beating him down and controlling his life.

So was he really in love way back then? Well, in his mind the answer would be a no. He would deny it until he was dead and gone, six feet under. That’s how stubborn he was with this subject. But I’ll tell you the truth. He was getting there. Jensen made him feel differently than the other women he’s slept or been involved with. It’s a hard feeling to describe, just like it’s hard for James to admit that he had once loved this girl standing in front of him. But naturally, when she left he just about forgot about her and moved on to other women. James was in a way glad that she’d left. It caught a break for him and allowed him to get rid of that nagging feeling about her. It obviously wasn’t gone forever though, considering the way he had acted just a few minutes ago, all speechless and what not. It was like he’d seen a ghost or something. James watched her as she explained where she went. Something told him that wasn’t the whole story and she hadn’t really told him why she left, which was probably the question James should’ve asked instead of where she went. The why was always more interesting. But he wouldn’t push the subject, she obviously didn’t want to tell him which was just fine with him. One thing he did know was that Jensen’s family was almost as dysfunctional as his own, which is one of the reasons why they’re pretty good friends. Similar family problems always seemed to bring people together. You could tell though, that James didn’t buy her story. I’ll just pretend that your explanation is acceptable, he said, in a slightly teasing way.

James released her from the hug, that smile still tugging at the corners of his mouth. I forgive you, I guess. You still owe me a little something to make up for it though, he replied, suggestively offering a little mischievous smirk. It’s been too long since he’d last been with her and James would like to waste no time picking up where they left off. When she asked if he’d missed her he chuckled lightly, shaking his head a bit. Not at all, what is there to miss? he questioned, joking around with her once again. Of course he missed her a little. There would be a couple nights that he’d wonder where she went or what she was doing, or even if she would come back. He wouldn’t tell her that he thought about her though. That would be his little secret. James missed their nights together too, even though he’d found plenty of women to replace her. But none of them had the effect on him that Jensen had. It drove him crazy though, how differently he treated Jensen. Okay, maybe I missed you a little bit, he commented. Probably not as much as you missed me though. I bet you dreamed about me every night,, he added with a cocky grin. It was ridiculous how conceited James was. He doesn’t exactly know where all the confidence even came from, but it came nevertheless.

He moved to stand next to her and wrapped an arm around her shoulders. Walk with me, he said, beginning to walk towards the waters edge, enough to get his feet wet and began walking down the beach. He kicked up some water with his feet. So how’s California? Better than this shit hole of a town? he questioned, smirking. This place could be pretty boring at times. California had always been a place that James had wanted to go to. He heard the surf there was great. Maine on the other hand was like a polar opposite. But, it had it’s fun days too so he had to give the place some props.

word count: 1,144 w/o code
status: doone
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: no problemo (:
listening to: If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

It was a slight relief the moment her embraced her. Okay, so slight wasn’t the right word. Major would suit Jensen’s feelings much better. A major relief. James may still be a little pissed with her but he wasn’t holding onto it. Jensen found this a little odd. The James she thought she knew, the James she was used to wasn’t really the forgiving type. Yet here he was, arms around her, making her feel at ease again. Maybe that hadn’t been his intent. Maybe that was just the effect her had on the girl. For the last year or so he’d always had a claming effect over Jensen. Not really in her attitude but something about the young male made her feel safer. Almost as if James Morgan could fix anything. So, maybe he’d softened up over the past few months. Her face turned quizzical for a moment at the thought but soon turned back to it’s cheerful self. James Morgan? Softening up? That was the stupidest idea she’d ever had.

He didn’t seem too thrilled by her explanation but he played his part well. Even she could tell her was trying his hardest not to stay cranky with her. Her explanation wasn’t the best, Jensen knew that but James didn’t seem like the type of guy that wanted to hear your life story right. Though the two were friends, good friends at that, they never really got right into that personal stuff. It was obvious they both had it but both seemed sort of closed off. Jensen had other people to open to anyway and she assumed James did too. The more and more she thought about it though, she began to wonder if he really did. He didn’t seem like the type of guy that got close to anyone. Jensen on the other hand fell in lust ridiculously fast. That would explain why most of relationships were short lived. Just as fast as she fell for them, she got over them and so it went. She’d felt something with James however. What it was, she had no idea. He called her more often, they hung out without it even resulting in sex. Ofcourse there had been a short time in their friendship where sex wasn’t even apart of it. Somewhere near the start and whenever Jensen had a new boyfriend. That was until she broke up with them or ofcourse, ended up cheating on them with Mr. Morgan himself. She’d picked up on it though and she’d also picked up on the fact that he seemed to hate it. The boy was giving out different signals all the time and so she’d decided there was no need for them to form the bond she could see his was trying to fight against. They were fine letting things stay physical.

Resting a hand on her hip, Jensen grinned as he pulled away from their hug and heard his words. Nope. The boy hadn’t changed and that wasn’t entirely a bad thing. The smirk, the tone in his voice, no wonder she’d never second guessed any of their times together. He oozed charm and Jensen was more than happy to lap it up. ”Oh I’m sure I’ll be able to make it up to you in whatever way you need” she shrugged casually with a cocky smile. Making it up to him would hardly be a chore, infact it would be something to look forward to. Pick up where they left off , right?
”Ouch! That hurt” she placed her hand over her heart and winced in mock pain. She suspected he’d missed her. Why else would he have acted the way he did just moments before? Knowing it made her feel kind of happy. Whatever it was he missed, she was glad he did.
And then there it was. His admission. Only a little bit? Better than nothing and let’s face it, she knew he’d missed her more than he was letting on because she’d missed him too. ”I knew it” she teased happily with a giggle shortly following, ”I’m impossible not to miss”.
Cocky as ever it seemed. Dreamed of him every night? Now that was going over board, but had she missed him? Ofcourse she had. She’d felt this stupid pull towards him before she’d left and in a way she saw her leaving as a good thing for them. Jensen knew it was scaring him, whatever it was and it was good for James to not have to deal with it. Likewise for her. She’d never thought she’d miss him so much though. There had been plenty of other guys to occupy her mind but every now and then it went back to James Morgan and what could have been. ”Oh no babe, you’d be surprised how many hotter versions of you in Cali there actually are” she teased, her face cracking into a grin as it was far too hard to pretend to be serious. Jensen loved nothing more than toying with him. James was the cockiest guy she knew and the minute she made him think there was someone out there that was better than him, she always felt a little triumph.

”I guess I don’t have a choice” she added, as his arm draped around her shoulder and he began to pull her along the beach. There was no protest though. Jens couldn’t think of anything better back on that beach. Plus it felt good to have his arm around her, she eased herself into his side with ease and comfort, just like she used to.
”It was…amazing” she thought carefully as she spoke. It really had been an amazing experience, ”It’s like you get to be a whole new person. There’s too many people for everyone to be gossiping about you. The best parties, nearly everyone’s good looking, interesting” she listed off her love for the place, ”The surfing is pretty good too. Well, that’s what the boys told me anyway” she added, having not forgot his love for the water sport. Ofcourse Jensen herself was yet to get out on a board. Knowing her she’d probably kill herself. California really had been great but she was relieved to be home. Not even she would have thought that could happen in a million years. ”It’s good to be back though” she admitted, watching as her feet made footprints in the sand, ”There’s a lot in Maine to miss, y’know?” she looked up at him. Yes, there was plenty to miss. Her family. Her friends. Her home. Her School. James. Not that she’d let that one slip.

WORDS!? 1,105 w/o codes
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? awwwe they're so cute lol
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

Whatever it was earlier that had rendered James speechless was thankfully gone now. Maybe it was just the shock of seeing her for the first time in what seemed like forever that made him lose his words. Or maybe it was just that James didn’t do well with handling such awkward moments. He had a sort of hatred for awkward moments, not that anyone liked them, but some people could definitely deal with them better than James. James on the other hand, disliked awkward situations so much he did his best to avoid them. But this one with Jensen was unavoidable, considering he’d literally run into her and all. Good thing though, the moment has passed and James was back to his normal self. It was probably a relief to both of them. A speechless James called for a not so fun conversation. Was James developing a soft spot for Jensen? Hey, that’s not such a bad idea really. James would never admit to having a soft spot for anyone though. That’s not how he got his reputation. He liked his reputation very much, and didn’t want to do anything to jeopardize it. And admitting to anyone that he had the tiniest soft spot for Jensen, it would ruin everything he’d worked so hard for.

It’s true that James has never been too interested in people’s personal lives. Most of his relationships were strictly sexual. He never sat down with anyone to talk about feelings or his past. Especially not his past. James had a couple of guy friends, but of course guys never sit around and have sharing time where they talk about how their lives are going and all that crap. James mostly doesn’t care for people’s personal lives because if someone just all of a sudden started talking about it, then they would for some reason expect some kind of contribution to the conversation from James. Well, James never talked about his inner most thoughts, or his slightly depressing past. He’s never told anyone about his sincere hatred for his father, or his longing for a loving mother. It’s another thing that would most likely ruin his reputation of being a bad ass and a jerk. Not to mention, people would start treating him differently and James didn’t want anyone’s pity. Pitying others never helped, to James anyway. It always made him feel pathetic, and that was never a good feeling. He wasn’t one for special treatment. People around these parts talk, and if James revealed something about his past to even just one person, everyone would know by nightfall. And by morning, he’ll have people all around him staring him down and saying how sorry they are for him. Ugh, just the thought of it pissed him off. So basically James was glad that the conversation that was to start about her family was dropped faster than it had began.

James smiled at her comment. Well they were both being pretty cocky today. You say that as if I’m not hard to please, he joked, attempting to act offended. Or maybe it was the other way around, she was being cocky and saying that she was excellent in bed. James wouldn’t protest to that. It’s been a long time, but James had a pretty good memory. He was pretty skillful when it came down to it as well, and when their skills were put together it was like…Freshly baked cupcakes with extra frosting. Great analogy, right? Heh, yeah I thought so too. James offered a shrug when she pretended to be hurt by his comment about not missing her. He rolled his eyes playfully after she teased him about admitting to missing her just a tiny bit. That giggle of hers was just too funny. Impossible not to miss. And people say I’m cocky, he teased, chuckling lightly. Oh yes, James was one cocky son of a bitch and basically everyone in Wells Beach knew that fact. James had made a nice reputation for himself around these parts. People knew he was cocky, and a jerk and they either loved him or hated him for it. There was really no gray area in between for James. You know how there’s some people and you think that they’re just “okay”. They don’t annoy the crap out of you and yet they’re not the nicest person in the world, but tolerable. Well, there’s probably no one who felt that way about James. People either thought he was a complete ass hole, and chose to hate him for it, or people who actually got to know him and his funny side and learned to love him. That’s just how it went with James.

James let his jaw drop ever so slightly when she mentioned hotter versions of him in California. He put on a hurt face, as if that comment took a huge blow to his ego. But in reality, his ego was too big it was almost immune to comments like that. Pretending to be offended though was always fun, and he knew that she was only joking around with him. Or, at least he hoped she was. James could be quite the jealous type. Not to mention protective. And with Jensen, he was even more so protective of her than he would be of anyone else. Oh I doubt you’ve found anyone hotter than me. If you have, I’d like to meet him and be a judge of it myself, he replied, punching his fist into his palm with a smile. Okay, so he wouldn’t go as far as to beat the guy up, and you could tell by the way James laughed at himself. But if the guy did something stupid to hurt Jensen in some way, then the boxing gloves would definitely come out. James listened silently as she explained how her trip to California was. In all seriousness, it sounded like just the place James should be instead of here in Maine. It was such a boring state. But California; beautiful people, beautiful ocean, and probably something to do everywhere. Sounds like my kind of place. Maybe I’ll vacation there this summer, he said with a light smirk. James thought about her last set of words. Eh, he could sort of understand why she missed this place. Despite the boring moments, there’ve been some fun times here in Maine. And the people are…Interesting to say the least. Yeah I hear you. Maine isn’t so bad I guess, he replied, looking over at her to take in her appearance once more. The urge to just take her back to his place right now was just overwhelming.

word count: 1,111 w/o code
status: le fin
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: they really are. <3
listening to: Lookin' Boy - Hot Stylz
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

Jensen took comfort in having James around. She always had in a way. The reputation he had? That was all for good reason. He was cocky, he was arrogant, he was bad at times and he certainly wasn’t the type of guy you wanted your daughter being around. Maybe it was those things that had drawn Jensen to him in the first place. Oh and the killer body. But as she’d spent more time with him, he’d grown on her. James was the most closed off person she could think of. Give the slightest hint of a meaningful conversation and she was sure she could make the guy jump a mile. It was kind of nice to know she had that trick up her sleeve. Making him a jump a mile? A mile away from her. It wasn’t really a tempting thought. Deep down, somewhere in him, she knew he had a heart, she’d been witness to it and the slightest glimmer of hope that he had, made Jensen like him all the more. He was complicated and it seemed he’d never be cracked. That was why she found comfort in him. They made each other feel good and yet she knew there would never be more. Even if she secretly longed for just a little bit more from him, what they had was better than shacking up with some emotional guy and having to be with him forever.

Thankfully she had good old James back now. No more awkward moments or looking for the right words to say. They were both back to being themselves. He was as cocky as ever and Jensen was lapping it up. Just like the old days. Thank goodness that hadn’t changed. He seemed relieved in the fact the serious talk had died down and Jensen was too in a way. She’d come out to have fun. Not converse about her deepest darkest secrets with the one person who she suspected could top hers with ease. Fun, fun, fun. That’s all she wanted and she’d found the perfect person to have it with.

A crooked smile appeared on her face and she gave a half hearted laugh. ”Oh trust me James, I’ve got you down pat” she winked with a grin. She couldn’t have been more right either. This little thing that James and Jensen had had, or still did, she wasn’t too sure about that, well it had been going on awhile. They both complimented each other in Jensen’s mind and no one seemed to know what they were doing like James did. Then again, he’d probably had more experience than any other guy in Wells Beach. California maybe. All those times together left Jensen with very good reports on him.
He kept her smiling, not once had that smile faltered in the last five minutes. Jensen was sure he didn’t realise how he actually had the ability to make her smile but he did and she was grateful for that. They were still like two teenagers really. They teased each other constantly, poked fun at one another and their cocky attitudes, though his outshone hers with ease, left them looking just like two love sick sixteen year olds out on the beach together. Just using the word love and James in the same sentence made her laugh. The rolling of eyes, the giggles. Anyone would have thought they’d end up confessing their undying love for each other any second. Hardly though. More like desire. Even Jensen wasn’t about to admit there was more to James than having sex with him that she liked. There was plenty actually. He was funny when he wanted to be, he was fun and she knew he could be sweet. He was protective. Jensen wasn’t sure if it was just over her or all of his friends but she liked feeling like she was protected by someone. Especially someone like him. And she liked feeling like he actually cared.

She’d known the idea of competition would get him going. Looking up at him with cheeky smile, he reacted in a mixed way. He looked slightly shocked at first, shocked that someone would even bother to compare him to another guy and Jensen was more than satisfied with that one reaction. Then he went back into normal James mode. Cocky as ever and yet his hand gestures still managed to make her laugh. She doubted he would go as far as to hurt someone that was stealing his limelight but then again it was James, you never knew with the kid.
Had she found anyone hotter than him? It was hard to say. Jensen had a lot of drunken nights hooking up with many different guys and she’d always found it hard to compare. In her opinion, James was right. You didn’t get much better than him though she had stumbled upon a few look a likes. California was full of the blonde hair, ripped, blue eyes types. Though none of them had the same effect on Jensen as James did. ”Oh I’m sure I still have a few of their numbers somewhere. Next time I give one of them a call, I’ll be sure to let you know” she teased with a cheeky smile and a small giggle. She took pleasure in teasing him. They could say anything to each other really and get away with it. She had to admit she always felt a little jealous pang when there was news of him with other women but there wasn’t much she could do was there? She was with others guys at certain times, she was constantly going out with different times and fooling around with James on the between times and he seemed to cope with it well. If he didn’t, he didn’t really let it show. Or she wasn’t good at picking things up.

She looked out across the beach thinking about California. She already missed it now that she was listing it’s good attributes to James. It had been a good time in her life. No one there knew her or anything about her. No one gossiped about her. Maine however was home and she didn’t really need to remind herself of that. She’d been gone for too long and was happy to be home. James’ plan sounded perfect really. She missed California but not as much as she’d missed Maine, so maybe it would better as a vacationing spot rather than a home. ”You really should” she encouraged him with a sincere smile, ”Though you’ll probably never want to come home and what would I do then?” Jensen laughed. What would she actually do? A better question, what was she supposed to do now? She’d been away so long she had no idea what was going on with her and James. She assumed he didn’t have a girlfriend. It didn’t look like hell had frozen over just yet. But was he all for going back to how things were? Surely she’d been replaced by someone knew, that wouldn’t really be a shock. Doubt crossed her face for a brief second as the thoughts ran through her head but she was soon knocked back into reality at the sound of his voice again. What better way to find out than to test he waters right? Jensen had always been one ot act on impulse and do as she pleased anyway.

Stopping on the sand after slowing her pace, she turned into face him. ”Yep Maine has it’s good points I guess” she spoke softly, looking up at him, raising herself up lightly on her tip toes so that her nose brushed against his. One delicate, manicured hand rested against his arm and then she did what she was more than used to doing with James Morgan, she titled her head gently to the side and kissed those familiar lips. What was the worst that could happen? He could reject her? He never had before and if he did, it was his loss really.

WORDS!? 1,339 w/o codes
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? freshly baked cupcakes with extra frosting, that actually made me lmao
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

When people talked about James Morgan there was a good sized group of words that are usually used with his name. Cocky, arrogant, ass hole, jerk, hot, are a few examples of said words. It’s been that way for as long as he could remember. It all started though, probably towards the end of his freshmen year of High School. James wasn’t the toughest guy in school; there was no doubt about that. In fact, James was rather scrawny and only had a handful of friends. A handful meaning maybe two or three, good, solid friends. Surprisingly enough, James was never surrounded by a big group of people who just longed to talk to him, nor was he chased down the street by mobs of girls. James wasn’t afraid to admit that he was hideously unattractive during his freshmen year. He had that teenage boy acne problem going on. Sure most guys go through that acne stage during their teenage years, but for some reason James’s acne seemed worse than the rest of them. And people had no trouble making that known to James. He got picked on quite a lot and really never knew how to defend himself. Considering his father didn’t give two shits about what James got himself into, he had no support system for when he was picked on at school. So you can just imagine James’s confidence level during that horrible year of high school. But the summer always brought about changes in people, and thankfully James crawled into a virtual cocoon during the summer and came out a beautiful butterfly.

Sophomore year James got more attention from the ladies and he just lapped it up like a dog drinking toilet water. I guess you can say that it gave him the confidence boost that helped lead him to be the man he is today. Whether that’s a good or bad thing, well, you can decide that one. That’s when the reputation started. All the attention got to his head, and what with his boxing lessons starting up the bullies gradually stopped messing with him. James beat up some kid from his freshmen year and that’s probably what did it for the rest of them. He wasn’t bothered by anyone ever since. As James’s head got bigger and his ego grew, he got around quite a bit. James can’t even count the number of slaps in the face he received from various girls during his High School career. He was known to jump from girl to girl fairly quickly. He didn’t know why, but he always ended up bored with one relationship, which either led to a nasty break up, or him hugging and kissing up on another girl while still in the relationship. Despite what he did to girls, they still flocked to him for some odd reason. Maybe it was the bad boy image James had going on, but he attracted girls like a dead, rotting corpse attracted flies. By the time senior year rolled around, James Morgan had made a name for himself. And seeing as he hasn’t moved, that reputation carried over to college. Of course, not as many people knew of him like the amount from High School, considering college was ten times bigger than your average High School. But plenty of people he went to High School with went to the same college that he had, and word gets around fast in such a small town.

And now, James still attracted the women easily. Despite the reputation he had, his charm and bad boy demeanor was in a way irresistible. And before meeting Jensen, James thought that there was no way that he would ever feel more than lust for any girl that he met. For some reason, he just didn’t think it was possible. After all the years of not settling for one girl for more than a week, flings and one night stands became a sort of habit of his. Like smoking or doing drugs, sleeping around would be a hard habit to break. So why even try to change? He hasn’t suffered the consequences of sleeping around yet, so why fix what’s not broken? But damn Jensen for being so…Different. James chuckled lightly at her comment about having him down pat. Yeah I could say the same for you too, he replied, just thinking back to those heated nights with Jensen. What great memories they were. That little smirk on her face only reminded him how perfectly similar the two of them were. They both had confidence in themselves and their abilities, though James more so than Jensen, but they joked around about it a lot. They weren’t so into relationships so that got rid of some tension that would’ve been between any other two people. Their relationship was the ideal relationship to James, or at least it was. For some reason, there was a nagging unsatisfied feeling about his relationship with Jensen. It was this gnawing feeling at the pit of his stomach that seemed to come around whenever he was near her. God, he could just punch a wall.

When Jensen had mentioned having a few guys’ numbers left over from California, even though it was a light hearted joke, James couldn’t help but feel a tinge of jealousy in his stomach. James was naturally a jealous type of person, which was sort of ironic considering he had his fair share of women and surely he’s made plenty of them jealous when they caught him making out with another girl. But call James a hypocrite if you like, he got jealous easily. He would just play it cool though, not wanting Jensen to see the jealousy in his eyes, he covered it up with a playful smirk. No problem, I’ll just bang one of your best friends, he teased, kicking up some water with his foot. Funny thing was, if he was drunk enough, he probably would get with one of her friends. It wouldn’t be something he’d do completely sober because well, Jensen wasn’t just a fuck buddy, she was a good friend of his. And James wouldn’t do that to one of his friends, it was a sort of trust thing he had going. It took a while to build up James’s trust enough to where he’ll trust you with almost anything, so it was only right that he does his half of the job of keeping the trust. And Jensen probably knew he wouldn’t knowingly stoop so low.

James followed her gaze out to the ocean. It wouldn’t take much to sway him from Wells Beach, so when she mentioned that he wouldn’t want to come back he nodded in agreement. I know I won’t want to come back for a fact, he said with a light chuckle. A small smirk tugged at his lips and he gave her a light squeeze with the arm around her shoulders. God, what would you do without me? Life would be boring and not worth living. In fact, that’s probably the way you felt when you were away from me in California for so long, he said with a wide, cocky grin. There he goes again, just assuming that life is just so bleak without him present. In fact, what would the world do without me? It’d be chaos, he added, shaking his head, unable to imagine the world without him, James Ryan Morgan. He laughed at his own narcissism. James dropped his arm from her shoulders when they stopped walking. He looked at her and knew the change in the tone of her voice that she was about to do something, and he had a good guess as to what that something was. She spoke softly, his eyes wandering over her and landing onto those soft lips he once knew so well. James placed his hands on her sides and slid them down her soft skin to land on her hips just as their noses touched, and her hand rested on his arm. Their lips locked and it was like putting on an old pair of jeans that you had lost long ago and just found. James stepped closer to her, closing the gap between their bodies as the kiss grew deeper. Their tongues mingled and danced together and James was enjoying everything from the feel of her soft skin, to the familiarity of her lips.

word count: 1,403 w/o code
status: dun
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: hahaha, i lol'd when i typed it.
listening to: Beat It feat. John Mayer - Fall Out Boy
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
_____________________

They were like two peas in a pod really. The pair had their similarities and nearly anyone could name them off the top of their head. Ofcourse they had their differences too and Jensen seemed to focus on them much more. While both had a habit of sleeping with a few people, James was more of a womanizer where Jensen just ran through boyfriends at an alarming rate. She was open to people, or at least she liked to tell herself that. She’d first begun dating back in her freshman year. Lost her virginity Freshman year and sort of never looked back. It was even hard for her close friends to keep track of how many love interests she’d had during her teen years. Boyfriends, Friends with benefits, one night stands and even an oddly creepy stalker or two thrown into the mix. Many considered her life one big drama but it was certainly her love life that created the stir. As for James? Jensen couldn’t even tell you if he’d ever had a girlfriend. Sure she’d seen him with other girls and felt that stupid jolt of jealousy but that was it. If anything she’d guess she was the closest thing he’d ever had. Simply because not only was she someone he could call up when he was horny but because they were friends somewhere beneath everything. Their friendship was what made things easier for her. Chances were that if he were any other guy she’d have been over him by now but there was something about James. She liked to blame it on the fact it was because they really were friends but the more she tried to steer away from the fact there could have been stronger feelings for him, the more even she began to see she was falling for him. Or atleast she had been before she left.

Seeing him again bought everything back and she realised just how much she really had missed him. Not just the sex but she’d actually missed him. Jensen would roll her eyes at every cocky little thing he said but the point of it was he could make her laugh and act light hearted. He put up with her crap and more importantly he always came through for her when she needed him to. The girl shook her head, trying her best to keep all menacing thoughts out of her mind. They seemed to race through even faster when she was around him.

There she went again with the roll of those blue eyes and there he went again with yet another cocky remark. She’d always been tempted to ask him to list his flaws, just to piss him off. Such a thought would probably make his head explode. That was where they differed again. Jensen had no problems admitting how fucked up she was. She drank far too much, alone and whenever she needed to escape reality. She could be completely self involved at times and overreact to stupid things. She got out of control and made a fool of herself and she was a terrible flirt to boot. The list could go on.
Go out and bang one of her best friends? The words actually stopped her mind short for a moment or two. Would he actually do that? What a stupid question, ofcourse he would! Her generally happy features turned sour for a moment. Looks like her plan had backfired. She’d hoped to make him jealous and yet he didn’t seem to care in the least and here she was looking like a jealous bitch. God, she was so transparent sometimes and he was just so…James. No way would she let him win that one and make her look like an idiot though. ”That’s fine with me” she shrugged her bony shoulders against his arm even though it was a complete lie. A mischievous grin pulled at her lips though as she let out a small laugh. ”My best friend is Evan though” she couldn’t help but laugh, ”And sorry to tell you baby, but I just don’t think you’re his type” Jensen finished off with her smart assed comment and jabbed him lightly in the ribs with her elbow, laughing once more. Evan and James? Now they only time she could picture them touching each other was if one was smacking the others head in and just the thought made her stomach turn. At least him her mind she’d won that round and smiled smugly to herself.

Her smile turned into a genuine one again as she squeezed her shoulders. It felt amazing to be that close to him again. It was silly and she sounded like a stupid school girl, she was completely aware but Jensen was a sucker when it came to little things. Big, romantic gestures were disgusting in her eyes but little moment like that made her smile. ”Oh I’m sure the women of the world would find somewhere else to get their casual sex from James” she shook her head with a grin. What had she done without him all those months? Well that was easy to answer in the literal sense but I’ll spare you the details. But now that she was back she didn’t know how she’d been able to put him out of her mind so often.

And then finally. Finally, finally, finally. She got to kiss him and it was like nothing had never changed. She was used to those lips and those hands and the feeling of his body against her and it was a feeling she wouldn’t have traded for any other guy in the world. For such a spontaneous girl she found comfort in this one familiarity. Her tongue, his tongue. Her lips, his lips. How she’d waited this long , she had no idea. She’d been unsure and now she wasn’t even sure why. It was James. If she couldn’t kiss James Morgan, who could she kiss? It was quite cliché really. They must have looked like a summer special in their board shorts and bikini, sun kissed beach kids hooking up on the beach.
Pulling away from him lightly and almost wanting to go back for more right away, Jensen caught her breath lightly wishing they hadn’t met up at the beach and were instead at his place right hat instant. A gentle smile played across her face, her entire face lit up in a happy daze. She left her hand resting against him, her body still close to his and looked up at him once again with that same smile, ”Mmm, I knew you missed me”.

WORDS!? 1,107 w/o codes
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? I feel horrible darling. It took so long and it's so crappy. sorry, sorry sorry <3
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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[JAMES RYAN MORGAN]

When James looked at Jensen, he saw so many things that he’s just realized that he missed when she left for so long. With other girls, James usually described their looks with provocative-like words such as sexy, or hot, or on those drunken nights with his group of buds bootylicious. Yeah, it’s a long story and a slight inside joke with some of his friends. But yeah, he’s called a girl bootylicious before. That often gives James the image of being a player and womanizer, which is entirely true. But with Jensen, God he sees a beautiful girl. Her eyes are a captivating blue-gray. They draw him in and utter him speechless at times, like a poor deer caught in headlights. Soft locks of blonde fall down just a little past her shoulders and frame that pretty face of hers. Everything about her was enticing, and in a way James hated how perfect she was. It drove him insane that this girl could change his whole demeanor just by looking at him in a certain way. Don’t even get him started on her smile. You know how people say laughter is contagious? Well, Jensen’s smile is even more contagious than laughter. When she smiles, it makes James forget about everything. It’s like they’re the only two people on the whole earth, and it just automatically brings a smile to his own face. Of course, this could never be uttered with any ounce of breath in James’s body, or else he’d feel like such a stupid cheesy sucker. And James worked too hard to get the reputation that he now has to go and ruin it by telling Jensen how beautiful he thought she was in the most detailed way possible.

Out loud, James would struggle to list off his various issues. Somewhere deep in his mind though, he knew how messed up he was because of his father and everything that’s happened in his past. James drank and partied way too much for his own good. He smoked whenever he felt the need to, which wasn’t often but still, he did it. James is an angry person, always taking the pain that he felt out on other people, which is why he’s such an ass hole. He pushes people away too much, not to mention he thinks he’s better than just about everyone because of his money and abilities to bash just about anyone’s face in, along with his knowledge of his good looks. In fact, James probably had more flaws than he did strengths. It’s sad, but that’s just the way he is and he doubted he would ever change. He would resist speaking up to Jensen about how he felt about her because he was afraid. Afraid of what she might think, afraid of not receiving the love he felt for her back, afraid of having his heart broken. It was interesting how different people’s lives are from what they make it out to be. James has always seemed to have it easy to the people who don’t know the pain he feels inside just about every day of his life. James chooses to hide under his hardened shell. It was his protection. But Jensen seems to be the only one that’s been able to do so much as to crack the shell, getting her one step closer to the James that’s been in hiding for so long.

And there goes that gorgeous smile of hers again. Even though it was more of a mischievous grin than anything else, it still had an effect on James. Despite her best friend being a guy, and he had just said that he was going to bang her best friend, James smirked. Well I hope I’m not his type. Damn, way to ruin my awesome joke. Who knew you’re best friend would be a dude? he replied, noting her triumphant grin. He couldn’t help but feeling that small sting of jealousy after she’d mentioned her best friend being a guy. For some reason, James could never picture a girl being best friends with a guy without them having a little something else going on. And he couldn’t help but wonder if it were true for Jensen and Evan. James didn’t really know Evan, so it was hard to say if he was putting the moves on Jensen or not. All he knew was if Evan did anything as such, James would have to beat his ass. Don’t think you’ve won just yet. It’s not over till I say so, he teased, laughing as she jabbed him lightly in the ribs with her bony elbow. In return, James bumped her lightly with his hip, pushing her closer to the water. Maybe I’ll just feed you to the sharks, he said, chuckling lightly as they continued their trek down the beach. James smiled at her comment, shaking his head. I don’t know about that one. I mean, I doubt there are any guys out there that are as good in bed as I am, he said, pulling another cocky grin. Could he be any fuller of himself? Yes, he probably could actually. James will be James.

Compared to all the other girls he’s kissed, this kiss actually meant something special. James was kissing the girl that he’d fallen for so long ago, and was now beginning to fall fast for her again. Soon he’d land, hard on his ass if she kept making him feel this way. But he just couldn’t help it. This whole thing felt right to him and honestly he didn’t want to lose Jensen. Unfortunately for him, Jensen pulled away after a little while, his eyes reopened slowly to look at her. James smirked lightly at her comment. I could say the same about you, he replied, his breathing begin to slow to its normal state. Let’s face it, James missed Jensen, a whole freakin’ lot. All the women in the world could not compare to this one girl that stood in front of him. No girl could make him feel the way she makes him feel, and no girl had such a great ability to steal his heart like Jensen had. He gazed into her eyes, his cooing, nosy friends didn’t exist, the people walking past them on the shore didn’t exist, nothing else matter. It was just him and Jensen in his eyes. Then a slightly mischievous look appeared on his face. James bent over and lifted her into his arms, cradling her like one would hold an infant. In fact, you missed me a whole hell of a lot, didn’t you Jens? he questioned teasingly, walking towards the water, going in to just about his mid thigh. James swung her around, threatening to throw her in. Let me hear you say it, he said, smiling as he began to drop her, but caught her back in his arms before she hit the water. Could James Ryan Morgan actually be in love?

word count: 1,165
status: FINISHED!
tag: jensen jayde miller
outfit: woah baby, minus the boxing gloves of course. xD
notes: oh it's definitely okay considering i took five bajillion years to reply to this. x3
listening to: Toxic - Britney Spears
credit to: supernova sync ?! @ caution for the text banner

[JENSEN JAYDE MILLER]

*( miss j e n s e n miller )

i thought i was a fool for noone
but oh baby, i'm a fool for you


you're the queen of the superficial
&& how long before you tell the truth?
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There was something about the way James Morgan looked at her that made Jensen nervous. It wasn’t the bad kind of nervous but it made her skin tingle and she could tell just how intently he was watching her. He was the type of guy that you wouldn’t put anything past. He could have been scrutinizing a flaw of hers in his mind and any second could have told her exactly what was wrong with her. He could be a complete asshole and she wouldn’t put it past him. But then there was the part of her that saw a little more to him and those looks of his. She could almost see the battle raging on behind his eyes and she often wondered what he was fighting so hard. Was it her? Could it be possible that he too got that fluttery feeling in his stomach when she was near. A girl could hope but hope seemed to be all there was with James.

He could have anything he wanted and he often made it clear. Money, jobs, cars, women. Whatever. Though it probably should of, Jensen didn’t mind all that much when he was with other women. Ofcourse it stung a little but she went off and did the same thing. They were too alike to let it get to her. Ofcourse when a girl James was with was prettier than her or had a nicer laugh, or better shoes and seemed more interesting, it became hard to watch. Instead she’d either sulk off or more than usual, she’d find someone else to hook up with. It was stupid. It was like they were always playing childish games but for some reason both seemed to love playing. Jensen loved how they’d always wind up with each other. One would make the other one jealous and a few days later they’d be back in bed together and things would feel alright again. That’s what she had to keep reminding herself though. They were purely sexual. Yes, they were friends when they wanted to be and she’d seen times when James got protective of her but apart from that, sex was all James wanted and she was happy to give it to him until someone else came along to steal her heart. If that was even possible.

Even James had to agree she’d won that round. Thank god for her friendship with Evan, she’d known it would come in handy one day and now it seemed to be doing the trick. She’d had one over James and knocked him down from his cocky spiel and even better, it seemed he was a tad jealous. ”What’s so shocking about that?” Jensen asked him, pretending to be completely shocked by his reaction. Evan really was her best friend and only that. Maybe she’d hooked up with him a few times when she was drunk but that was nothing. Not once had it passed through Jensen’s mind that a male and female couldn’t be friends without sex being involved but then again this was coming from James. There probably wasn’t a female on Earth he could be just friends with. ”I don’t sleep with all of my guy friends you know?” she laughed, shaking her head at him. It probably wouldn’t have surprised a lot of people if Jensen actually did however but she was someone who really did value her friendships. ”Only the select few” she looked back up at James with a wink. And he was definitely in the select. Hell, he was by far the winner in that category.

Let’s face it. There was no beating James in Jensen’s mind. He looked amazing. All the time. Even when she woke up next to him in the morning after they’d been drinking all night long. He looked amazing. His body was to die for. Those eyes were amazing and that stupid smirk of his made her want to slap him and kiss him at the same time. Not only that but he had the power to captivate Jensen. She didn’t think about a guy for that long before getting sick of him but as screwed up as it sounded, the complications that came with James seemed to interest her. It was like there was enough there to keep her around for longer than usual. Enough there to make her try.

The whole not being cocky thing didn’t last for long though and the good old James was back bragging about his skills in bed. Jensen rolled her eyes after letting out a tiny laugh. Okay, so she’d walked herself right into that one. There was no denying it. James had a reason to be so cocky in that area. When it came to the bedroom. Or the car. Or the Beach. Or a Party. Or…well, you get the idea, he was a god. Clearly he’d had enough practice but Jensen had to say, James was the best she’d ever had and he bloody well knew it. Probably because despite how much he annoyed her at times, she always kept coming back. Ofcourse her feelings for him played their role there but James would never think of such a thing. In his mind it was because he was some sort of sex god. ”Hmm, I haven’t slept with everyone in the world yet, but when I do, I’ll let you know” she smiled cheekily up at him. ”Let’s hope you refresh my mind on what James Morgan has to offer very, very soon though” Jensen added boldly. Soon seemed wonderful to her and she knew she wouldn’t be turned down. It was James for god sake. He didn’t turn anyone that wasn’t hideous down. Unless things had changed but she doubted that. James wit ha girlfriend or committed to someone just couldn’t even be processed in Jensen’s mind.

Kissing him was like kissing no one else. To everyone else they probably looked like two horny twenty something year olds displaying a gross amount of PDA on the beach. But not to Jensen. There was something sweet and passionate about kissing James. She’d never thought the two could be combined but some how they’d managed it. It felt just like a first kiss every time and she hated pulling away. But ofcourse she had to add in her comment and ofcourse it was quickly retorted to. He was right. Jensen had missed him like crazy and she hadn’t even realised it that much until this moment. He still hadn’t admitted it to her exactly yet so she bit her lip, though a smirk was evident on her face and shook her head slowly. Just like a naughty little girl.

However he had other plans of getting it out of her and within seconds she was wooshed off her feet. A squeal escaped her lips as she was being cradled into his arms. Good thing he was strong and she was so thin. Giggles erupted from her and though they probably looked extremely juvenile she was loving every second of it. It was nice to have back home again. Nice to be having fun with James. ”James put me down” she managed to laugh out. No way was she letting him win this one. Her body dropped slightly and it took her breath for a moment. He wouldn’t drop her. Would he? She wouldn’t put anything past him. ”Okay, okay. I missed you. I need you. I love you. I want you oh baby, oh baby. I haven’t been able to live without you” she slapped the back of her hand to her forehead dramatically and the sarcastic words droned from her mouth. Everyone of them was true but he had no need to know that and it really had just been a smart ass way for her to get out of the situation.

Wiggling from his grasp, Jensen managed to get to her feet and out of his grip. ”I hate you” she laughed, still trying to catch her breath. She d an idea though. Payback was a bitch. Moving a little closer to him, she licked her lips gently and rested her hand on his shoulder, then the other on his chest. Slowly, she pulled her head closer to his, keeping her eyes on him at all times, just before her lips met his though, she grinned mischievously at him and pushed him backwards into the waves with as much force as she had. With hands on hips she couldn’t help but laugh as James ended up in the surf and she thought she’d won again. Poking her tongue out at him, she moved closer to the shore so she could kick water at him, ”That’ll teach you” she beamed gleefully.

WORDS!? 1,459 w/o codes
STATUS!? finished!
TAGGED!? James Morgan
ANYTHING ELSE!? don't worry, this took forever too. they really are quite cute though
CREDIT!? credit to carrie @ caution [/SIZE]

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