* sunsets into the oceans ,

[SAWYER GAVIN WILLIAMS]

i can't sleep without you babe,

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music was something that sawyer didn't need anyone's help for really. well, at least for when he wanted to create the beats or lyrics to the song. he found it natural to make those, but the thing he lacked was the voice to sing it like some people did. though, super stars now days only sung and were pretty faces. it was rare to find someone who wrote their own music, and actually had to put time and effort into it. which explained why on stage or live they were horrible but there was a few who you met that were actually better live than on a cd. sawyer didn't need anything but music, and his girlfriend who happened to love music as much maybe even more than him. he knew music was something he wanted but he wasn't going to put his girlfriend in front of it any day of the week. it also was nice to actually have a girlfriend who could sing, but she would at times help him with his music, and he would write stuff just for her to sing. he had grown up with this girl always being the odd one out falling her around.

sawyer never really felt he was in any clique at high school only because he was always the odd one out. he didn't mind this, because him and teagan always were friends even if drama had happened. though it was rough because they both had different schedules and caused things to get out of hand. but she knew he would always be there for her no matter what. he still was, but never would he thought he would be dating her, and well he was glad he was at the moment. he hated having to sit around and listen to how these guys would treat her wrong, and just use her for something. sawyer hated all men like that, and knew it made a bad impression of all men. but even then somewhere different and he felt like he was one of those guys. though he was different from many people. sawyer had been working at the club as stage hand for the bands, but he enjoyed talking to the musicians the most only because it seemed to help him find more inspiration to write another song. though he won't really tell anyone he actually wrote a song knowing that some won't like it but, he didn't need anyone's approval. if he did it was from one special lady who really seemed to love his random music he would write. '

he was somewhat impressed that teagan could read his random scribble of words across his paper half the time. he was almost done his shift at working knowing it was closing and he already had cleaned up backstage and now was sitting on the edge of the stage with a yellow notebook across his ripped jeans pants. he had a pen in his left hand only slightly touching the paper as he rode some words down to a song he started now long ago. the song played in his head lately over and over again, and the same picture kept popping up. well it wasn't a picture but more of a video of an relationship between someone who couldn't leave the person they love, and became addicted to the person. he was in his own world before he felt someone tap his shoulder and turned to see the owner standing over him slightly straining his eyes to read the writing. "you can leave sawyer, it's not your job to do everyone's work." smiling lightly he pushed himself off the stage and onto the floor. he walked to the bar and around into where the drinks were stored and picked up his bag before opening it up and placing his notebook inside. he then closed it and took the black leather strap and threw it over his arm before heading towards the entrance.

he had brought his guitar knowing he wasn't going to go back to his place. it was almost morning and he knew that he wanted to let teagan slip, even if she always insisted him to wake her up in the morning. he wanted her to get her beauty sleep, but he knew this way he got enough time to think about everything and let his mind focus around how he would pop the question. he had been pushing it off for a good while but they were serious, he loved her and he wanted her to be his forever. but he wasn't sure how to go about it. sure when they were in third grade they were married with gummy rings,but that was way before hormones hit, and things started to get bigger and other guys wanted her. holding onto his guitar he slowly walked down the streets of town heading for the docks knowing most were still sleeping, and decided some peace alone was good for once. though he at times wished teagan was there even though he somehow wanted alone time.

stopping on a corner of the street he set his guitar down and reached into his jean pocket and pulled out his phone. he was going to tell teagan he would be home, soon. it seemed he never really knew the exact time she would be up which made it hard for him to surprise her with breakfast and everything. finding her name he clicked the center button and brought the phone up to his ear. he got her voicemail, and decided she would get it knowing her. "Good morning, sorry i'm not home but i'm out at the pier just thinking. i'm sure you look amazing, but i love you and i know i'm there to say it to you. but morning. " it was always daily for him to say good morning to her, and he was on the night shift for the club and took over for someone tonight knowing the club needed him. but he wasn't going to do it again because he know he missed actually being able to sleep with teagan next to him, and being able to feel her lightly and silk hair through his fingers.

walking onto the pier sawyer reached the edge and sat on it, laying it bag behind him and his guitar next to him. he opened his guitar case pulling out a somewhat old and run down guitar he had owned since he could remember. when he was young he had drawn teagan's name in it because he had a large puppy love crush on her, and i guess you could say he never got over her really. thinking about the few notes he wrote down already he decided to just to try and place it even if his voice was somewhat different than what he imagined for the part." since you went away, " his voice was somewhat well but he wasn't sure if he wanted to sing it. it was a song he started and never finished and now he knew why.

tag :: teagan aka bree love
song :: stevie hoang ,, addicted
notes :: okay, my first one was better
i think but they are love!
status :: baked and ready lovely.
word count :: to lazy

[TEAGAN MELODY LEERY]

teagan melody leery
My confusion shows whenever you get so c l o s e
I stumble, I s t u t t e r, forget what to say
I'm nervous, I wonder why I'm a c t i n g this way

Teagan woke up with a start in the middle of the morning. She had been hoping to see Sawyer laying beside her, but alas, he was still at work. Teagan really hated his job, but she couldn't complain. They were living on their own now, they needed to make a living for themselves. Things weren't the best, but they were good enough for her. But right now, Teagan had a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach, one that's been there for a few weeks now. And that so called feeling, was following it's way up her esophagus. Teagan slammed into the bathroom and planted herself right in front of the toilet and let it rip. She purged into the porcelain throne, lurching forward like she had spent the entire night drinking herself to submission. However in reality, Teagan had watched a few episodes of Family Guy, drank some water, and fell asleep. Why was she throwing up like this? Was she getting sick?

Teagan then groaned as she leaned her head against her arm as she looked down into the toilet bowl with a groan. Bad mistake. She lurched again and let it go again. Something was definitely wrong, terribly wrong, but she had no idea what it could be. She finally managed to settle herself before she began the process of vigorously brushing the vomit taste from her mouth. She then heard her cellphone go off and she groaned, yanking the tooth brush from her mouth and grabbed it. Sadly, she missed the call from her precious man, Sawyer and she pouted her paste rimmed lips. She listened to his message with a melty face before she decided to quickly change into something weather appropriate and head to the pier to find him.

After brushing her teeth for 5 long minutes and dousing her throat with listerine, then shoving a piece of whiting gum, the girl left the apartment above a local merchant and decided to make her way toward the docks. She walked along the deserted roads, her long brown locks swaying in the wind as she shoved her cellphone into her sweatshirt pocket as her brown skirt swirled around in the wind. Then her gorgeous green eyes fell on the form of her lover, her boyfriend, her best friend. She's been close with Sawyer ever since he started going to public school. She was taken with him even then and she remembered.

"Good morning, sawyer gavin williams." Teagan sang melodically. Teagan was always singing and she had a melody for everything. She giggled adorably as she wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed his neck gently before sitting directly behind him and wrapped her arms around him gently, resting her head against his back. She could feel how tense his back was, the shift must have been difficult. Teagan moved her body closer as she removed herself from him a bit so she could give him a gentle back rub. She missed being close to her boyfriend, they were both so busy, it was terrible. They were living on their own now so they had to support each other. That's all they could do right? They had to prove to the world that they could handle being on their own. They were getting by.

"You haven't been sleeping well have you?" She whispered to him softly as her skilled, slender hands moved against his back, rubbing out the kinks as her lips descended onto his neck. Her lips delivered delicate kisses to his pale skin, giving him gentle affection. She just wanted to be close to him again. She missed his touch and she just wanted one night in bed with him. Sex was important in a relationship, sure, but just holding each other was twice as important. Besides, Teagan had a weird feeling in the pit of her stomach, and sex wasn't looking terribly appealing. She then finished rubbing his back gently and wrapped her arms around his neck slowly and kissed up his neck to his hair before resting her head against his.

"Come to bed, baby. I missed you." She said softly, pouting her soft lips as she inhaled slowly and exhaled. She just wanted to go back to bed too, she was feeling sick today. She needed her boyfriend's and they just needed to be together for once.

w o r d c o u n t , too lazy to count
t a g , sawyer aka duckyy
l y r i c s , temporary insanity by alexz johnson
n o t e s , they make me so happy inside !

[SAWYER GAVIN WILLIAMS]

i can't sleep without you babe,

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waking up in the morning was something he hadn't done in a long time. he knew his boss would eventually let him have the nights off but his body was getting used to only see teagan a few minutes and not really being able to see her or even spend time with her. he knew it was fustrating for them both, but he knew he wasn't going to complain or whine since he had to prove to everyone he could provide for her. he knew that he was really lucky to have a woman like teagan in his life knowing tons of guys who wanted her. but, for some strange reason her choice was sawyer. he wasn't the smartest, or the best looking. in his mind he was just an average man trying to get by in the world that seemed to consider him a freak or what may have you. but at least he was real with people, and didn't have to put on a mask like some people. it annoyed him when people did that, but he merely brushed it off and went on with his life knowing people saw the real person sooner or later.

he wasn't sure how his guitar was going to pay for his life and teagan's but he knew that he never really tried. his job at the club was good enough for him at the moment, and it brought in enough money to keep them from taking it from there parents. he wanted sure how well his music would and didn't want that to be there only way of money. his lyrics were something only himself, and teagan looked at. but teagan had seen some of the songs he wrote, and well she thought they were good. but then again they had been best friends for years, and now they were in a relationship together. everyone kind of knew the two would soon fall for each other, though sawyer always had a thing for teagan but really didn't tell anyone specially not her. he wasn't sure how he fell for teagan but knew he wanted to be in her life no matter what. it was hard to explain to people the way she made him feel.

he was to focused in on his music to hear someone approaching him which made things somewhat difficult during the day. though whenever he was home teagan was at work, though lately she had been looking somewhat sick. he was concerned but convinced himself that it was just the flu or a cold going around. hearing her say good morning to him he smiled softly setting his guiatar down next to the case. "morning." he was about to twist his body around til he felt her hands around his chest, and a sweet kiss on his neck. placing his hands ontop of hers he breathed lightly knowing his whole body, felt much better with her around. it wasn't even hard to notice the change of his mood when she was around him. he still was same but his expressions on his face usually were always happy. it was kind of hard for him to be sad or even mad at teagan for some unkown reason.

feeling her hands on his back, he knew it was something he should be enjoying but he was getting more fustrated with the fact they only could see each other during the middle of the day or on the phone. but when she at work he tried not to both her knowing she actually had a job to do instead of worrying about her boyfriend and his needs. sex was something he enjoyed but knew a relationship should be a balance between physical and emotional needs more than anything. once in a while was good enough to him, but he knew lately it wasn't looking very good with the amount of time the two spent away from each other. once she was done he felt her arms move to his neck, and her leaving another soft kiss on his neck before laying her head onto his.

bending his head down he gently kissed her arms before moving his arms and removing hers from his neck. he turned his body around so he was facing her and kissed her lightly on the lips before looking at her, and standing up."i guess that can be arranged my love." he knew he wasn't really the type to say no and it wasn't something he ever wanted to say to teagan ever. it just wasn't in his nature it seemed to turn anyone down.

tag :: teagan aka bree love
song :: stevie hoang ,, addicted
notes :: sucks,, didn't really have
any muse =(
status :: done
word count :: to lazy

[TEAGAN MELODY LEERY]

teagan melody leery
My confusion shows whenever you get so c l o s e
I stumble, I s t u t t e r, forget what to say
I'm nervous, I wonder why I'm a c t i n g this way

Teagan was beginning to feel a little nervous now as she had her arms wrapped around Sawyer in a loving embrace. She was scared, because the pair were the type that wanted to show each other how much they loved each other. When the pair first moved in together, they had sex quite often. Now, she was beginning to wonder if that was coming back to bite her in the ass? Was she pregnant? The thought made her face fall slowly as she thought about it. Thankfully, Sawyer's back was still to her, so he didn't see the change in her mood. Teagan was suddenly very scared, that she was planning on picking up a pregnancy test later in the day. Would she tell Sawyer her fears? No, she couldn't, he was already stressed out as it is. Her parents would have a field day with this, saying she was knocked up already and that she only had herself to blame. Well, they were together, they were happy, so if they were going to have a child, well, they could handle it. At least, she thought they could, right? Doubt was swimming through Teagan's mind but she had to shove it all away.

Teagan felt his lips against her arms and the smile returned on her face as he moved away from her for a moment before his lips met hers. She missed his lips, as she kissed him back gently. She loved everything about Sawyer, he was so unique to her. It helped that he was a total babe. Teagan smiled again when Sawyer said that it could be arranged, knowing that the pair just needed to be close to each other. Who said they needed to get naked to do that? Besides, she knew how tired Sawyer was, after a shift like that. She rose to her feet and let her hand take a hold of Sawyer's gentle before the couple slowly made their way back to their small place about a local merchant's shop. It was small little place but they made it homey for each other.

Teagan yawned as she opened the front door and ushered Sawyer in slowly before she closed the door behind them. She dressed down then turned back to Sawyer, her hand going to her head. Uh, she really needed to figure out what was going on with her, because it was weighing harshly on her physical health. She ran her hand down her stomach, feeling that it was slightly bloated. Panic rose from within her and she felt her stomach churning. Oh no, not again, not with Sawyer home.

"Oh shit." Teagan groaned as she rushed away from her boyfriend, feeling completely embarrassed as she slammed the bathroom door shut right before she began to vomit yet again into the toilet. All the way as she let the bile rise from her stomach and out into the porcelain basin below her, she prayed to herself that this was just the stomach flu, that this was something would soon go away. Little did she know, that it was a little baby, growing within her thanks to the activities her and Sawyer engaged in, quite often with one another.

w o r d c o u n t , too lazy to count
t a g , sawyer aka duckyy
l y r i c s , temporary insanity by alexz johnson
n o t e s , uh oh !

[SAWYER GAVIN WILLIAMS]

i can't sleep without you babe,

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the body was something sawyer had learned when he was a freshmen in high school. though he wasn't all about a woman's body just yet he knew most of his guy friends were but they were guys with raging hormones that wanted to screw anything with two legs. he hadn't actually ever seen a woman naked until a few weeks later but never actually had intercourse until he was out of high school. he waited for the one girl that he was hoping would soon come. he knew waiting wasn't something he was good at knowing his patience got in the way at times, and adverted his interest into other women but he knew who he wanted til the end of time. he knew most people doubt he was a virgin just by the group of people he hung out with through high school but he was.

his parents were as much in love with teagan as he was. they had there doubts that the couple would last as a serious relationship just by the way things were for the two. they knew there son was different from most of her friends, but knew he wouldn't break her heart like before. they were used to her spending the night most of the weekends, and didn't mind it. they weren't sex fiends at least not at a young age, and sawyer thought they changed that within the year. he knew he could control his impulses but at times he didn't want to knowing he had for the longest time. though he never told teagan he had been wanting her for the longest time. it wasn't something he wanted to say, though now he wanted to be hers forever and never let her go. knowing she had gotten hurt before, and he didn't want to do that to her knowing that his heart was forever hers.

whenever he felt her lips against his he couldn't help but smile a little knowing that it wasn't a dream. even if it was a dream sawyer wasn't to sure if he wanted to ever wake up from it. he knew he wasn't perfect as she made him seem, though he thought the same about her. standing to his feet he held his guitar in one, and teagan's hand in the other. his fingers went over her skin lightly like it always did it seemed. it wasn't something he had to think about anymore, it was just a natural habit for his fingers to motion of her hand like that it seemed. his work shift was tiredsome but he knew that he didn't want to sleep at least not until teagan was sleep or gone out. though, he did feel bad at times when she came home to find him sleeping.

arriving at there house above a small shop he walked in front of teagan, and set his case down against the wall. it wasn't the biggest place, but it was big enough for the two of them and that's all that mattered to him really. he knew his parents offered to pay for a bigger place but it was good enough for the both of them and he would live anywhere as long as teagan liked it and was there with him. yawning he pulled off his shirt, and tossed it to the side before looking at teagan, and see her make a dash towards the bathroom. turning his head to the side, he saw the door slam and knew she was going to throw up. it had been happening more and more lately and he was concerned about her more than anything. openined the door to the bathroom, he walked behind her, and gathered up most of her hand and held it behind her head as she lunged forward into the tiolet. "teagan, you are getting worse. are you sure it's the flu babe?"

tag :: teagan aka bree love
song :: stevie hoang ,, addicted
notes :: aww <pets>
status :: done
word count :: to lazy

[TEAGAN MELODY LEERY]

teagan melody leery
My confusion shows whenever you get so c l o s e
I stumble, I s t u t t e r, forget what to say
I'm nervous, I wonder why I'm a c t i n g this way

As her bile rose and tossed into the toilet without remorse, fear crept deep within Teagan as she fought to understand what her body was trying to tell her. She was vomiting almost all the time now, she was feeling a bit moodier than usual, and she was beginning to eat a bit more than she normally did. She coughed horribly into the basin that held her sick as she looked at it for a moment. She groaned, noticing that it was no longer food or anything else she had consumed. She was just getting worse and she had an inkling that it wasn't the flu. What if it was true? What if her fears were coming true and her and Sawyer hadn't been careful enough with their sex life. She heard the bathroom door open and she knew her white knight was coming in to save her. She loved Sawyer more than anything and she was happy that they were this comfortable with each other. Most couples would shy away from being this close to someone while they were performing such disgusting acts. But since her and Sawyer have known each other for so long, this wasn't Sawyer's first encounter with Teagan Vomit.

She felt the heat of his chest against her back as she felt him come closer to her. She groaned sadly into the toilet as she felt his rough hands gather her long brown hair into his hands to keep it away from the vomit. She groaned, spitting any excess waste from her lips as she reached up and pressed the lever down on the toilet. She moved her head out of the toilet bowl and reached for a towel. She ran it down her mouth, coughing into it before she groaned, pulling Sawyer onto the floor with her. She leaned against him, fear in her eyes as she leaned her head against his shoulder. She needed to know what was going on with her body. She needed to know if this was a sickness or if it was really what she was fearing it was. If she was pregnant, her entire life would change. Sawyer's life would change she was afraid that this could really hurt them.

"I really don't know anymore." Teagan said finally, keeping her mouth buried in the towel so Sawyer wouldn't have to smell that horrible stench that was more than likely emitting from her mouth. She reached up, running her hand down his face gently before she rose to her feet slowly. She walked over to the sink and ran the cold water. She set the towel on the back of the toilet before she tossed water into her face and rubbed her hands over her cheeks. She then took a hand full of water and shoved it up into her mouth. She swished the water between her teeth before spitting it forcefully into the sink. She then grabbed her tooth brush and began to brush her teeth yet again. She looked over at Sawyer as her toothbrush brushed away any left over gunk from her teeth. She finished before turned the water off and turning toward Sawyer.

"It might just be stress. I'm letting this get to me so it's making the flu worse." She said and moved away from the sink slowly. The woman moved to him slowly before she snaked her arms around his waist and rested her head against his hard chest. She just needed him to hold her for a while. She needed to feel his love for a while. She would call into work later on today, knowing that she wouldn't be welcomed in this state.

w o r d c o u n t , too lazy to count
t a g , sawyer aka duckyy
l y r i c s , temporary insanity by alexz johnson
n o t e s , preggers is her !